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I believe my pursuit of peace and tranquility is stressing me out!

Monday, April 01, 2013

Now I don't know how some people do it, they always seem so zen, so completely in control of their thoughts and emotions. While I'm here barely able to get through the day without a couple spastic episodes. And before you think I am exaggerating for comedic effect check this out: I am a type A personality, control freak worry wart who is a mother. If that does not qualify my previous description I don't know what will.
So knowing myself and hearing my docs threaten to place me on the almighty pill(for HBP) I decided to lose some weight, take care of my heart and lessen my stress. As you can rightly guess option 3 is the hardest for me. In the last 30+ days I have been attempting to lessen my stress, I do a morning routine of yoga and meditation, I take regular me time breaks through out the day just to breathe, I do a brisk walk and drink green tea. Still, somehow every time I check my blood pressure it's through the roof! I clearly cannot blame white coat syndrome, cause I take it at home, and \I don't even own a white coat! I have gone so far as to create a space in my bedroom to become my sanctuary and still no change. I have always been a high strung, muscles tensed and butt clenched kinda gal, but I believed with everything in me that I would perfect the divine art of chilling out as one man calls meditation, turns out all this peaceful pursuit is putting me in peril-) So what must one do? Start the meds and then continue with the chill chase until I am all caught up? Or run like the wind and keep trying to avoid the weapons of mass toxicity-the pill. Oh now to make this decision has me rather stressed out, time for a 5 minute breath session. Send me some calming vibes will ya peeps.
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    Risa I see why your name is so fitting. Thank you for your kind understanding. I sense a most beautiful spirit here. I understand what you mean about it being ok, I came to that realization yesterday when I realized I was super stressing myself out. It could be worse right? LOL.
    BTW I do alot of cardio and you are right it helps loads.
    Thank you again.
    1713 days ago
    LJoyce thank you, of course I choose life, just always aware there are options. Thank you. emoticon
    1713 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/3/2013 11:34:28 AM
    Dear Lovinmy30s,

    Well amiga, you've got quite a dilemna here! On the one hand, if you take blood pressure pills, your pressure will come down. On the other hand, you don't want to take them so that thought (already hiding in your head saying 'gotta do it, hurry!')is making your pressure through the roof! I know because I've been there!

    A few hundred years ago, when I was your age, it upset me too. Now I know it's not a big deal. Yep, I take 'em. Two different kinds. But I also know one of them has a calming effect on me. The other doesn't matter with mood but it calms the bp.

    I wish I could just tell you it'll be ok (because it will!!). I wasn't able to grasp that in my 30s. But on the other hand, instead of using "calm down" exercises, why don't you throw some cardio in there. I am DEFINITELY type A and a SUPER professional worrier. When I go thru insomnia or worries, I just exercises like crazy (within reason) and wear myself OUT. Then I sleep better and it calms me.

    Oh and I take the meds. Yeah, I'd definitely take those meds.

    I do wish you luck on your weight loss journey. And the phrase "ten mucho cuidado" means "take good care". All the best!
    Riisa emoticon
    1714 days ago
  • LJOYCE55
    My older and wiser sister reminded me that although I may not like taking medication, this is a way to actually hold my future grandchildren rather than their having only a picture of me. Choose to live.
    1714 days ago
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