I believe my pursuit of peace and tranquility is stressing me out!
Monday, April 01, 2013
Now I don't know how some people do it, they always seem so zen, so completely in control of their thoughts and emotions. While I'm here barely able to get through the day without a couple spastic episodes. And before you think I am exaggerating for comedic effect check this out: I am a type A personality, control freak worry wart who is a mother. If that does not qualify my previous description I don't know what will.
So knowing myself and hearing my docs threaten to place me on the almighty pill(for HBP) I decided to lose some weight, take care of my heart and lessen my stress. As you can rightly guess option 3 is the hardest for me. In the last 30+ days I have been attempting to lessen my stress, I do a morning routine of yoga and meditation, I take regular me time breaks through out the day just to breathe, I do a brisk walk and drink green tea. Still, somehow every time I check my blood pressure it's through the roof! I clearly cannot blame white coat syndrome, cause I take it at home, and \I don't even own a white coat! I have gone so far as to create a space in my bedroom to become my sanctuary and still no change. I have always been a high strung, muscles tensed and butt clenched kinda gal, but I believed with everything in me that I would perfect the divine art of chilling out as one man calls meditation, turns out all this peaceful pursuit is putting me in peril-) So what must one do? Start the meds and then continue with the chill chase until I am all caught up? Or run like the wind and keep trying to avoid the weapons of mass toxicity-the pill. Oh now to make this decision has me rather stressed out, time for a 5 minute breath session. Send me some calming vibes will ya peeps.