Monday, April 01, 2013
I have to admit that one of my favorite perks to losing 90 pounds and finding health is becoming opaque.
When you weigh 300+ pounds you are invisible. Did you know that? People may stare at you when you walk away, but they never look you in the eye. I recognize part of the problem was my fault. I didn't want to look at them either. Didn't want to see disgust. Didn't want to see them quickly turn their heads before I caught their eye.
Now I look at everyone. I look them in the eye and stand proud. Not all the time, but most of the time, they will look back at me and return my smile.
Invisibility is a lonely way of life folks. If you are invisible, remember that there IS a cure.
I know we can, and should, be self confident at any weight. But most of us who have suffered alone in our extreme morbid obesity know the truth. Self confidence is ever elusive until you begin to live the life that makes you feel good about yourself.
Today, I am proudly opaque. Do you see me?