Monday, April 01, 2013
So why do I keep trying to change it???? So, August 1st of 2012 I had let myself get up to 156 lbs. By December 1st, I lost 27 lbs putting me at a fit, happy, healthy 129 lbs. feeling AMAZING!
December is when I started to experiment with PALEO since that is what the CrossFit community passionately endorses. Well suffice it to say I have come to the conclusion PALEO is NOT for me. On paper it is awesome and it really should work. That way of eating just does not click with me. And I have realized that as great as something looks on paper, you have to want to follow it. I have given myself 4 months to try to adapt to it and I just don't care for it. As much as I SHOULD be, I am not a big veggie eater. I also do not have the time to pour over new PALEO recipes and spend the time in the kitchen preparing lunch and dinner every single day.
So I decided, starting yesterday, I am going back to the way of eating that initially lost my big chunk of weight in 2009 and also what took off the 27 lbs last fall. Basically it is eating breads (or starch) with breakfast, morning snack, and lunch. And then dinner is lean meat and fruit and/or veggies. And of course my banana shake (half a banana and a cup of almond milk). Tracking everything to keep myself in check.
I ate this way yesterday and I loved it! It was like falling back into a relaxing, comfortable place.... I was happy and totally satisfied and did not even crave anything else. I realized (again) that in order for me to be successful and lose weight I have to eat foods I like in a way I like. If a plan like PALEO doesn't work for me, then I shouldn't do it "just because".
So I am excited. I am only up to 137.8 lbs... about 10 lbs up from my lightest. I lost 3 lbs overnight when I went from eating like a pig for a week to one day of healthy eating. I think one of the wisest things I did was get rid of my size 10/12, L clothes. Up here at 137.8 my 6/8's and S/M's are getting snug and I do not have a fallback wardrobe any more. It is def. a kick in the pants to get my act back together. The thought of having to buy a new pair of size 10's makes me ill....
I just pray I can get through this month without letting stress get to me. I have my MRI for my supposed pinched nerve in my neck next Monday. Nervous and stressed about that! Also, the following Monday (Apr 15th) is my appointment with an orthopedic surgeon to consult about my carpal tunnel. I had assumed that since the neurologist said I needed it and referred me to an orthopedic surgeon that it was a done deal and I would just go and schedule the surgery. Well, I am finding out that is not the case. The doc I am seeing supposedly (based on talking with others who have seen this doc) only does surgery as a last resort.... Which I understand, but am worried that they may not view me as having tried all alternatives. I mean, I only saw an occupational therapist twice before she told me she felt mine was bad enough for a referral. Also, I have not tried cortisone shots. The neurologist did not recommend them. UGH!!!!! I am just in so much pain, my nights are especially miserable, and the thought of having to deal with this for much longer worries me.
It will all work out I am sure. Happy April, friends!!!!