Monday, April 01, 2013
That was my BFF's advice a few weeks ago - I might be having a rough patch, hitting a major bump, it all appears super hard... but just make sure to be mindful of not making it PERMA-hard: relate to it as TODAY exercise feels impossible and eating well not within the realm of possibility; doesn't mean it will be that way tomorrow.
So today was my first time back exercising in several weeks - it just felt absolutely impossible to get my ass up to move, at all. Sure - stress, whatever; and my pattern - lose 10-15 lbs and then hit a crazy place. Been playing that game w/ the same 20 lbs for the last 7 years...
And time keeps marching.
So yea, it's hard. Sure, I've seen this before. Of course, I've developed habits and patterns. But hey - today I am at choice. *I* get to select what happens to me, *I* get to create my own damn motivation and inspiration - instead of sitting and waiting for it to strike. So I dragged my tired and cranky ass onto the elliptical... and it was great. For today, that's enough.
And I can tackle the major bugaboos of setting a plan and a schedule and calendar.... all that can wait. For today, I'm tracking my food and did 25 mins on the elliptical. For today, that is enough. For today, I am enough. For today, where I am is good enough.