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Ashamed

Monday, April 01, 2013

I am embarrassed to write this blog.

Basically, I've sabotaged myself and negated most of my progress since the beginning of the year. My weight is creeping up, and I know what the problem is -- I just am not fixing it! I really, really need to focus on what I put in my mouth. I have success for a while, then an extra bit creeps in here, an extra morsel there... until I'm not paying attention any more and finally have a day like yesterday where I'm too ashamed to even do my food log.

I stepped on the scale this morning, and while some may be water weight, I am up six pounds from when I was really experiencing success. I just don't understand why I do this. It's an emotional time for me, but that's really not an excuse.

My workouts have been really, really good -- and I've been consistent. But when I take a day off (which I know my body needs), I implode. Where's the balance? I have to get a handle on this.

So, I'm starting "over" yet again, trying to leverage what I've learned and the success I had FOR TWO WHOLE MONTHS. I have to keep telling myself I can do this.
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  • v JAVAJENN
    You can do this. Trust me. I didn't think I could do it either. I love to eat :) But darlin if I can do it you can too. Just 1 little change at a time and you will succeed. emoticon
    1153 days ago
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