Monday, April 01, 2013
Okay, so my alarm goes off this morning. And I am RIGHT UP...
..and hit the "Off" button...
...and get back in bed.
I really, really, wanted to go back to sleep. My bed was comfortable. I had already woken up at least two other times throughout the night, anxious and worried that my phone had gone off without me hearing it, so I was a little, let's say, extra tired, from that.
Then, I got to thinking. I told my husband I would. I told you guys I would. So, why wouldn't I? Because I was tired? Because, if I got up now, I'll be tired later? Newsflash: I'm ALWAYS tired (It's a thing, even when I am in healthy habits.) That's nothing new. Yeah, I could do the ST portion later, after my boys left, as planned, but the cardio is important too!
So, I'm afraid of being sleepy later. Was there any other reason I couldn't get up? No.. Well, what else is there. What else am I afraid of? Going to the gym and walking for one mile? No, I'm not afraid of that. I can walk a mile in my sleep. I, then, got to thinking about all the people I told I would begin my fitness journey today. I realized, I'd be afraid of failing you guys, letting you all down.
That fear of letting everyone down is, primarily, what did it. I was afraid of failing in the eyes of my supporters. I can fail myself, and I can justify it away. But, I care what others think of me, and while I'm not going to let it RULE my life, I can let it help motivate me to get what I need to get done done. I let down my Biggest Loser team last year by not pushing as hard as I could have, although at the time I thought I was. I let down my team by stepping away from the program when I thought it, in some aspects, wasn't a good fit for me- in reality, it was ME that wasn't doing anything for me, making excuses and half-assing it when I could have pushed and tried a little harder.
I don't want to let anyone down, myself or otherwise, any more.
So, when I realized I didn't want to let anyone down. I hopped out of bed, got my clothes and shoes on, and went to the gym.
19 minutes and 20 seconds (and travel and set-up time) later, I had completed my 1 mile walk/jog. Yes, I did jog a little bit. My butt was jiggly, though, so I jogged until it became bothersome. I know over time, and possibly with a different pair of pants, the jiggle won't be noticable!
And yes, as of this point, I am done with my planned exercises for the day. Walk/jog is done, as is my set of strength training exercises.
For the record: I stink at lunges. I did a set of forward lunges at first. In the middle of that set, I modified to backwards lunges, as I found it gave me more stability. And, then, for the last two sets, I just did stationary lunges. In my opinion, the stationary lunges burned more than the forward or backward lunges did! I definitely felt it in my inner thighs afterwards!
Tomorrow: Another mile, and a (now postponed) date with Jillian Michaels.
- Did some laundry. Squatted to take the clothes out of the dryer. WOWWEE, my legs were feeling it!
- No date with Jillian tomorrow (sorry, babe!) I have to drive in to work, so I don't have the time to workout with her DVDs. Next week!