Monday, April 01, 2013
I have always been an analytical person and when I started down this road I set my sites on a weight that would put me smack in the middle of my healthy BMI range. Then my dearest SparkFriend Jonnie (JAZZEJR) suggested I go for a weight that will put me about 2-3 lbs past my goal so that I could have a buffer that would fit my life style. So that is what I aimed for. Crazy as it sounds when I reached that new goal I kept losing so now I sit about 4 lbs below Jonnie's suggested goal and I have been within 1 lb of that weight up or down for over a year. It is very close to the weight I was at before I became pregnant with my first child and with my new obsession for brisk walking it is an easy weight for me to stay at.
I still track my weight weekly although my true goal is to always fit my new skinny jeans. I'm sure something will make my weight go up again whether it's a cruise (we have a 15 day one planned this year to celebrate our 40th anniversary) or just that my current fitness goals don't cut it anymore but I'll fight my way back to those jeans because I remember how awesome I felt to buy them and still feel to wear them wear them.
I find myself now completely obsessed with fitness and healthier lower calorie eating. I can't stand a day when I don't do something just to be active, even if its just a walk around the block.
I am truly dismayed though that now that I'm in maintenance mode I find myself evaluating peoples appearances. This is something I very rarely did before I started losing weight this time and I hate myself for doing it. My beloved sister and my beloved mother were both obese and my best friends from both high school and college are also obese and I know how lovely they are on the inside. I still wonder though how some people seem not to care.