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Time and Circumstance

Sunday, March 31, 2013

I am exhausted, worn down.
One day it will all be over
A Broken man remaining
This is not a complaint, simply fact.
A combination of events over decades have brought me here.
Time and circumstance.

I am a hollow man
Once filled with promise and destinations
Then I stilled
I was motionless for decades.
Realization was late in arriving
I missed my chance
All my chances

All that I could have done
All that I thought I would
Is over.
I simply am what I have become
A man worn down by time

I have realized salvation will never be for me
I can never overcome what I have done
What I have failed to do

However

I will never stop struggling
Fighting
Waging war on my past
I can never win
Never regain

My only hope
My only goal
Is to stem the flow
To undo a small part of what was done
What I did, what I failed to do
To live in a new time
To create new circumstance
To know that this is not what i had dreamed
Yet, what I have earned

I know I cannot win
Yet
I will not concede totality of defeat
I will continue
Moment by moment
Embracing the small conquest
Neglecting the inevitable defeats
Bending to my will a new time and circumstance.
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  • v AMYNUNLEY
    I don't think you deserve anything you have gone through and I believe your issues are not your fault. I know this poem was supposed to be encouraging, but it made me cry. you have done nothing in your life but TRY and FIGHT and hope to one day win a battle that was never your fault. your struggles and pain are not your fault and you have NEVER done a thing to deserve any of them. I wish I could just take them all away for you:( hang in there bro. love you


    868 days ago
  • v MYBULLDOGS
    never give up. life will get better
    1151 days ago
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