Sunday, March 31, 2013
So, I am kind of like the friend that disappears and comes back and wants to pick up right where we left off, right? Well, I come back to the Spark, humbled, shamed and embarrassed. Here is where i have been since December and really before that.
I have been on the "shame spiral", we all know what it is. Try, fail, eat, re-commit, try, fail, eat....you get the point. I have gained ten pounds in three months, which truthfully, is not as bad as i would have guessed.
I have had to kill commitments like the walk for babies, the ADA ride for a cure, because I can't even w3alk a quarter of a mile today without hurting and breathing. That is the embarrassment.
The shame is that I thought it was OK, and I am humbled that my wife still loves me even though i am not a big fan of myself right now.
So, instead of just recommitting, I am going to try hard to use the tools that worked for me on my first trip from 380 to 245, except this time, i am ahead because I am at 350 and don't need to take the 30-60 days to "figure it out" like a lot of us do. i know what it takes:
So, if it is not too much to ask, please forgive me and allow me to be your friend again.