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Sunday, March 31, 2013

So, I am kind of like the friend that disappears and comes back and wants to pick up right where we left off, right? Well, I come back to the Spark, humbled, shamed and embarrassed. Here is where i have been since December and really before that.

I have been on the "shame spiral", we all know what it is. Try, fail, eat, re-commit, try, fail, eat....you get the point. I have gained ten pounds in three months, which truthfully, is not as bad as i would have guessed.

I have had to kill commitments like the walk for babies, the ADA ride for a cure, because I can't even w3alk a quarter of a mile today without hurting and breathing. That is the embarrassment.

The shame is that I thought it was OK, and I am humbled that my wife still loves me even though i am not a big fan of myself right now.

So, instead of just recommitting, I am going to try hard to use the tools that worked for me on my first trip from 380 to 245, except this time, i am ahead because I am at 350 and don't need to take the 30-60 days to "figure it out" like a lot of us do. i know what it takes:
Work
Friends
Community
Accountability
Reward

So, if it is not too much to ask, please forgive me and allow me to be your friend again.
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TLG71567 3/31/2013 4:25PM

    Weight loss has to be a lifestyle change if it is going to work. I have finally figured that out. Shame and guilt don't help us. They just make us feel bad. Get back on track and keep working on making those small permanent changes that you can live with. emoticon

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