This diet must really be working:
I normally wouldn’t get on my scale wearing jeans. They add 10 pounds, right?
Ok, honestly it’s running out of batteries and not working. I swear. I’m picking up batteries this afternoon and will update you tomorrow. Don’t be too excited – I’m certainly not. Those numbers are going to be way up. Physically, I feel pretty awful right now. I fell off the wagon yesterday when I decided to bake chocolate chip cookies to use up the rest of the chocolate chips that were in the house, as I didn’t want to have another repeat of this situation ( wheatontrial.wordpress.c
). My intentions were good – the cookies weren’t for me, they were for me to bring to my father’s house today for Easter. And my husband was home, so I figured I was safe.
Only when the cookies came out of the oven, they just smelled awesome. So I had one.
Why is being intentionally wheat free so difficult? The good news is it that it was only one. I reminded myself the cookies were for my father, wrapped them up as soon as they were cooled, and called it a day. I started working on meal prep for my week – chopping veggies and cooking up a glazed sprial ham I bought (so cheap this week) – so that I could enjoy my Easter holiday today with my father and not have to worry about when I would get this stuff done. When the ham was done, I kept sneaking little bites as I was cutting it up – perhaps not a binge in itself, but I was beginning to feel a little out of control.
And then this happened:
A few of my friends were in town from Michigan last night. In the past, I’d serve post-dinner guests pretzels, potato chips, and dip. So I put some thought into what I could serve that would be satisfying, help me get back on my wheat free streak, and hopefully not be binge-worthy, and came up with a pretty good spread, I think – some meats and cheeses, veggies and a cream cheese-based dip, strawberries and whipped topping, and some white sangria from a local winery.
I laid everything out at 8:00 when I anticipated my guests’ arrival, poured myself a glass of wine, and waited. After a few minutes, I decided to grab a few bites of sausage and cheese. Then veggies. Then strawberries. It wasn’t like a full-blown cookie binge, but at this point, I KNOW my mind was saying stop… but I was still eating. I considered putting everything away and pulling it back out after my guests arrived, but I figured they’d be coming any minute.
Well… they DID make it (45 mins late) but promptly shared they were so stuffed from the Chinese restaurant they were just at, and really couldn’t possibly eat another thing. Honestly, I’m glad it happened that way – as soon as they said it, I put everything back in the fridge and out of sight. I was done nibbling for the night. But it doesn’t matter. The damage was already done – I know it because it’s the afternoon and I’m still feeling full, bloated, and blah from last night.
So the question that I still can’t answer today is whether or not wheat causes me to binge. After all, I had the cookie earlier. The problems seem to be intertwined – but the chocolate chips incident did occur on a wheat free day. I really need to get this streak going.
Headed to my father’s house for Easter dinner now. Another challenge presents itself…