Sunday, March 31, 2013
Well here we are, the last day of March, Easter Sunday, and I am posting a slight new low weight. I am "moving in" to this body now. This "old" new body is a delight to me in so many ways. So why does this Bierce quote resonate with me? In 12 more days I will have written down every bite of food I have eaten for 365 days, if I in fact continue that "streak". I am fairly certain that short of a coma I will complete that goal. It did after all, return me to a weight where I can attend Weight Watchers meetings for free, in case I need to, and where I am frankly completely pleased with my looks and my health.
How does this relate? I have a real problem with change apparently. I have been "acceptable" as far as my weight goal is concerned since November 7 of last year.
My next goal is to STAY in a range that keeps me content with my weight and health, hopefully for life. Today I am meeting that goal. So here is a brand new endeavor, why is it not Alive ? Why do I keep looking at the other goal, the one where I was striving to be here. What makes this one less.... fun? How much of my "juice", my creative self, do I want to spend on this new "now I will stand still right here" goal? Another year of writing down every bite I eat? I think not. I am going to begin a new adventure on April 13th. I will step on my friend the scale each morning. The squeal weight is 163. If I see that or more, I will put my food into Spark until I see something less. If I see something less, I will live my life with eyes wide open, looking for something else to spend my creative fire on.