I am now two days out in what I have decided to call my journey--and the most important thing is being transparent...I have forced myself to be truthful, not only with myself but everyone who will read/listen. Sharing this journey with a close friend is the best decision I could make because now I am not only invested in myself--but her journey as well.
Part of being transparent, is acknowledging that I am where I am for many reasons, none of them flattering...
Sure! It would be easy to say I am here because I suffered an on-the-job injury that gives me constant pain--but the fact is my back will hurt no matter what I do and will only feel better if I lose weight.
It would be easy to lean on the fact that I had two rough pregnancies, gained 142 lbs. between the two of them and every woman knows losing baby weight is hard...
As a matter of fact it would be easy enough to just say, I am a mother to two wonderful children, work part-time and go to college....Easy enough, but not THE truth.
And on this journey--I am opting for the truth, no matter how difficult it is to put it out there.
So the truth is, there is plenty of time for me to exercise, but I choose to play a video game instead or catch up on my favorite show. DVR = Laziness, in my life.
The truth is I bought an elliptical, and can count on one hand the number of times I have used it....Laziness.
The truth is I have an enormous collection of workout DVD's, but I never put them in.....Laziness.
The truth is I can eat healthier, but it is just quicker and more convenient to eat the garbage.
But if there is anything I am learning this far, it is this: Truth and Fact are not the same. I know these truths about myself, but they do not have to be the facts.
Every day from here on out, I choose to change my truths, adjust my behavior.
I will hold the only thing stopping me from reaching that healthy finish line in check--myself. My wish for everyone is that you would take this journey of transparency with me.
Let's stop hiding behind our excuses, no matter how plausible and TRUE they are.
One day at a time, One decision at a time...Change your truth!!!
On a side note for this blog, this was meant to devalue my common excuses, put the difficult part of myself out there. I am in NO WAY bullying myself and I would never suggest doing such a thing. I don't think laziness is always bad--but I think a habit of laziness is unhealthy and often this habit is formed through rationalizing our behaviors (and lack of activity). This is all part of my personal journey--I am a VERY POSITIVE person and I have no problem being the first one to pat myself on the back. This was my starting point of bulldozing excuses, forcing myself to look at myself for the good choices, and the bad. And let them go....So hopefully all of my friends won't be worried. !!