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The conversations I have with myself...

Saturday, March 30, 2013

So I try to go to the gym five to six days a week. Every day, it's the same conversation with myself...

"But I don't wanna go to the gym!"
Tough...

"But people will be looking at me.."
And??

"I hate being here. These people are so much more in shape then me."
You have something to look forward to then, huh?

"Why am I wasting my money on a gym membership?"
What would it buy you? Another dinner at McDonald's? Another pound heavier?

"I hate myself right now! I feel like I'm going to die on this stupid machine."
Suck it up, buttercup. I'm finishing this.

"I don't know what I'm doing."
So you'll learn...


The last few days I haven't been having as much of this conversation with myself. I'm pretty sure my inner fat kid is mad at me and is sulking in the corner somewhere. It's amazing what you can do when you push yourself just a little bit more out of your comfort zone. The ski machine, the one piece of equipment that I DETEST more than any other...well I did 18 minutes on it today. That's the most I've ever done on it! It may not be a big number for some people, but for me, it's like climbing my Mt. Olympus. Three months ago before I started this BLC challenge, I wouldn't have attempted working out in a gym. I was too self conscious about my weight. Today, I went to the gym twice!

I'm very thankful to my second family, the Silver Spies! They're an amazing group of women and one terrific and awe-inspiring man. Because of the challenges and the constant support from these people, I'm feeling like I'm finally moving in the right direction. I don't think I could have found a more perfect team, so thank you...from the bottom of my heart. I have quite a few wonderful people to look up to. emoticon
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MEVILL 4/3/2013 8:25PM

    I wonder if your "Ski Machine" is the same machine they have at my gym that I call the "Deliberate Machine" because you REALLY need to focus on what you're doing...as if you're DELIBERATELY trying to force yourself into exhaustion. I too detest that machine, but when I'm through on it, I feel incredibly good about the efforts I've spent. Keep up the great work because you're worth it!!

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BABIESTEPS 4/2/2013 8:39PM

    You're Awesome! I'm so proud of you and I'm so happy with your responses to your negative self! I think we all do that-it's the norm...for me getting to the gym is the hardest part,that's when negative me is loudest, but once I'm there my positive voice speaks louder! Keep fighting! You're a winner! emoticon

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CHANGEISGOOD 4/1/2013 9:04AM

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keep up the great work! You are so worth it!!!

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LJR4HEALTH 3/31/2013 5:30PM

    It is amazing what one can accomplish when we leave our comfort zone. You are doing great

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SKEEWEE2MEK 3/31/2013 2:05PM

    I love it! You're making progress! I hate the ski machine! I tried it once and lasted three minutes. So just know you're doing better than some of us! emoticon I'm sure you'll see amazing results. The BLC is awesome and it's great to be with a team you love. Keep up the good work! emoticon

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BRAVELUTE 3/31/2013 9:24AM

    I loved your conversation with your "slacking" self. I still have to have those converstations once in a while, though I never seem to win them. But since my inner child has gotten stronger with every pound lost, she seems to take handle the conversations now, and she's quite effective.

I wish I had seen your conversation about 8 months ago!!

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JUSTLIKEALICE 3/30/2013 10:00PM

    18 minutes is a lifetime if its something that challenges you! I can't stand stairsteppers. No matter how in shape I get when I get on the stair stepper I get to minute 5 and I think I am going to die. WAY TO GO on 18 minutes! You rock! And there are plenty of people on the Spies who look up to YOU love!

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LHLADY517 3/30/2013 7:35PM

    WTG on those 18 minutes.

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