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Spring, Finally!

Saturday, March 30, 2013

It is the beginning of spring break for me, or will be as soon as I finish grading papers and posting grades! God has blessed us this year with a forecast that truly looks like spring. It will reach 60 degrees here for the first time this season today and will continue in this vein for the next several days! Whoo hoo! I'm going to rake the yard!

I signed a pledge on my last blog to never quit or give up on this journey toward healthier living, which has felt like an uphill battle for the last few weeks. The pledge, as well as an awesome lesson from Coach Nicole, has allowed me some self-reflection and self-forgiveness as well as a plan to stay on track. I've been focusing on getting a bit more exercise every day this week, and it feels wonderful! I ALMOST met my calorie goal yesterday, despite a potluck at work; that's amazing, since I've been exceeding it by over 1,000 calories a day for way too long!

The sunshine and warmth feel great, and it's easy to feel less stress and more hope and happiness when not facing deadlines at work. But why was I making such poor choices over the last weeks? Why did I allow stress and depression to win that round? Why did I sabotage my positive lifestyle changes by buying cookies, Doritos, ice cream and fried chicken? Why did I quit working out on my exercise bike when I know how much better I feel after even a short ride? Am I afraid of success? No. I'm not good at this self-evaluation thing, but I think I jumped at the chance of having an emotional excuse to make poor choices. I was almost defiant in the store. "I'll buy this because I want it!"After so many months of better choices, why did I regress? Why did I cop an attitude? Why did I eat a pint of ice cream at a time? I doubt my ability to completely figure it out, but I do NOT doubt my ability to plan for an alternate course of action when faced with the same feelings again.

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    I've been exceeding my calorie goals too. :(

    Let's keep working at it!
    1654 days ago
    I could have written that last paragraph? Why do I sabotage myself?
    1664 days ago
  • JULIA_211
    emoticon emoticon I ask myself those same questions! I have no answers myself, emoticon but I am with you! emoticon There's nothing like a sunny spring day to re-motivate us! If winter can bring on the blues, then spring will do the opposite! Here's to spring, my friend! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1665 days ago
  • PCOH051610
    Great blogM I hope you get your correcting and posting done soon so you can truly enjoy your spring break. What grades and subjects do you teach or are you at college level?

    Here is another tip to keep you motivated. When your voice of defiance tries to speak over your voice of reason (it happens to all of us!) imagine (oh dear, you are really going to think I'm crackers) as good and bad monsters. Honestly, it works for me. I imagine the good food choices as little good monsters doing their good work throughout my body and then I look at junk food and think, is there one good ingredient in this? Take the Doritos, are they filled with good little critters that are going to help your body out or are they full of bad little monsters that are going to wrack havoc on your body's cells, etc.

    I'm not saying don't eat junk food! I believe everything is good in moderation and tonight is my treat night where the bad monsters will party as I eat a bag of chocolate converted acai berries. emoticon
    1665 days ago
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