Saturday, March 30, 2013
So I fell away from SP for a while, but I didn't stop working out. But my eating went WAY off track once again.
I'm always reading that losing weight is %70 food and %30 exercise. I LOVE working out and I'm super self motivated. I started a 12 week program that helps you build muscle and as the program continues it starts to add cardio. I enjoy weight lifting far more than cardio so I decided to do this program.
But my eating, man my eating. It controls me so much. And I'm so tired of falling victim to it all the time. I'm tired of feeling powerless over it. I'm tired of walking into someone's house and having the feeling like I need to leave because I can't stop at 1 piece of cake. It's awful and I hate it. I can't even have one piece of chocolate candy without consuming the whole bag in secret later on. I'm tired of my clothes getting tighter and tighter and my belly getting bigger and bigger. I'm tired of how crappy I feel every day, the lack of energy, the mood swings, and the biggest thing...
I feel like I'm just getting through life...not living it.
I'm ready to live. I'm ready to start new again. And I will continue to start new as many times as I need to to get where I need and want to be. I want to remember this moment. I never want to feel this way again. I never want to see the scale say 222 ever, ever again. I'm tired of the big numbers, I'm tired of the big waist size. I'm just tired. I'm ready for energy and life.
And what better time to feel like beginning a new life on this blessed Easter weekend where Jesus has given us the opportunity for new life in Him! I feel renewed this Easter knowing that the Lord has given me a new life through his death and I am so grateful for that and the opportunity for grace and forgiveness.
I'm forgiving myself for being so lazy and selfish and having lack of self control. I'm so blessed that I have a gracious husband who loves me despite my size. I'm ready to throw off my old self and put on the new me. Confident, consistent, energetic, alive, joyful and disciplined!
I'm ready. Let's start this thing. Take it day by day, moment by moment. Daily goals, weekly goals, monthly goals, yearly goals.
Daily goals for today
exercise for at least 10 minutes
journal for at least 5 min
ready my Bible for at least 5 min
clean out my microwave
Spend at least 30 min (broken throughout the week) teaching my son something
Lose 1 pound
Exercise 5 days for 30 min each day
Write a letter
Monthly goal for April
Lose 5 pounds
Write 2 letters
Introduce a new skill to my son
Get the house cleaned and de-cluttered
So there are some goals to get me started
Wish me luck, pray for me, join me, encourage me, call me out on something, walk with me on this journey.