Saturday, March 30, 2013
I am struggling a little (lot) bit today. Every other Friday my boyfriend and I go out to lunch. We have deemed it "Fast Food Friday" - of course I can make healthy choices. We usually go to Wendy's, Subway or the food court at the mall. At each place there is a sensible item that I can have
Wendy's - Small chili
Subway - 6in club on wheat - scoop out the bread, get rid of the bottom and eat it "open faced" which I usually only eat about half of it like that before I toss the bread all together
Mall Food Court - Teriyaki Chicken - no rice - extra veggies - they make it with all white meat chicken and no oil. It is a very good dish. Also the portion is nice sized and will give me at least 2 meals.
Today we went to Inlow's which is a local diner type place that specializes in 12 inch hot dogs and fried foods. I got a pizza cheesesteak and just ate the steak. I ditched the entire roll. It was a little greasy, and seemed very salty, but it sounded pretty good at the time. That set the tone for the entire day...
A co-worker lost a bet to me and in turn had to buy me lunch. We ordered from a Mom and Pop Pizza Shop, and I got a small chicken salad w/ house dressing (olive oil and red wine vinegar) It was very good. It comes with homemade bread, which I gave directly to my co-worker. I didn't eat it.
But then... one of my local drivers showed up. He is a delightful man who makes the most awesome homemade chocolate peanut butter Easter Eggs. He gave me one, and I couldn't resist. If I would have ate it all at once, I would have gotten sick, but I nibbled a little of it here and there, and before I knew it... I ate the whole thing! Then... my co-worker had Laffy Taffy. I have such a weakness for that... then I had a bite or two of a homemade nut roll... with yummy flaky pastry... I know this is unacceptable, but I couldn't seem to stop myself.
Everyone comes in with the... don't be hard on yourself, you work so hard, you deserve a treat... blah blah blah. What I really need is someone to say Hey fat a$$, do you really think you need that?
I have a family dinner tomorrow. My family cooks pretty healthy. There will be ham (yummy) scalloped potatoes (yuck) green bean casserole w/ cheese (super yummy) and I am not sure what else. I am going to have to be very careful. My mom is making Angel Food cake with fresh strawberries for desert. That is well within my limits, but I need to be careful.
I don't know why I am having such a hard time today... I don't know why I feel like an empty pit, but I need to get it figured out, because this behaviour can't continue.
I will face the music tomorrow and see what the scale says