Friday, March 29, 2013
I'm sorry, old Me.
Sorry for everything.
I'm sorry I didn't believe in you. I'm sorry I didn't take care of you the way I should have. You didn't deserve that. I let other people tell me you weren't worth it, and I lied to you for a long time. I'm sorry for making your body sick. I'm sorry I caused you to have high cholesterol, blood pressure, and a fatty liver. I'm sorry that at 23 you needed your gall bladder removed. There aren't enough words to say how regretful I am. Most of all, I'm sorry for the life you missed living because I didn't know how to change. That time can't be given back no matter how much I wish you had it.
So, I've said I'm sorry, and I hope you will forgive me because every day from now on is a new day. I am different now, truly I am. Things have changed. You can trust me not to ever let you down again. We will have a great life together, and be healthy together. I'm through with doubt and I have learned to be strong and persistent for you. I've learned to face my fears when I wanted to run and hide.
There is nothing we can't do if we want it bad enough.
So, I am going to keep running. I am going to keep eating well and taking care of myself, for you. You matter, and don't ever forget that.