Friday, March 29, 2013
Positives of the day:
I had a great conversation (4 hours) with a guy last night,
he's cute, religious, and actually told me that his intentions in dating are to find someone to marry and have kids with which is RARE for someone my age around here.
His dad died a few months ago and we both talked about how without God we wouldn't of made it thru the loss of our parents.
It was SOOOOO nice to get along so well with someone so well and them actually be religious and funny . that is so hard to find in my TINY town...
I've only been single since Jan and I'm not expecting rose gardens right now but it sure was nice to have a spark again for someone who is passionate about the things that matter to me :)
I guess it just feels nice to know my flowers can grow again when I'm ready to water them..
sometimes when you go thru a breaking up it feels like there will never be another you can love the way you loved the one you thought was THE ONE.
But alas. I have a spark of hope that i can find my best friend again and that he can be a good godly man cause thats what I want and I will not settle for anything less than the best, cause im the best :)
Second Positive of today: is the toxic friend texted me 5 times last night I ignored them. texted me only ONCE today.
I hate letting go of a friendship that used to mean so much to me but I'm a different person inside than I was months ago I KNOW now that I have the right to be happy and not sad forever and well yea. I can do this im stronger than i feel right now about it...
Well I'm off to try to start my project for the book I'm reading. I keep putting it off because well as most women I know self pampering comes very hard for me when everything else is staring down my throat...
Well wish me luck. I know I'm on the right path and I thank God for that.
Today is awesome. God is awesome.