Friday, March 29, 2013
I ate a Krispy Kreme glazed donut today… This isn’t a guilty confession though, what’s kind of ironically funny about eating it is I am not even a fan of donuts, if I was going to “loss my morals” over something it would probably be chips and dip not something sweet but there it was a box a Krispy Kreme’s I don’t even remember walking over to the box or even chewing it, it was almost like something took over my body and devoured the thing as I just stood by and watched. I’m now sitting at my desk drinking tons of water to try to get this crazy sugar high out of my system as quickly as possible. Right after I finished said donut I saw the article from spark people the talks about mental cues that make us cave to the crave, the funny part is I wasn’t even craving it, I didn’t even want it but I mindlessly ate it? It was the closest thing I can describe as my body being on auto pilot.
The sucky part is I have been doing so good to keep my sugar intake super low and that was a huge sugar intake. I had a moment of feeling defeat but then gathered myself again and thought I will track this donut and I will not just throw away the rest of the day like I have so many times in the past. The not so distant old me would have thought “ well great I complete blew today I might as well eat what I want and try again tomorrow” I’m thankful that the old me at least would always try again tomorrow but the new me just said “well you ate something that wasn’t so great for you, track it and try better for the rest of the day” It has taken me so long almost 27 years of living to realize at any time I can do something, anything to turn that day into a good day even if I go all hog wild during lunch I still have the option to eat a sensible dinner or get more exercise.
I guess my point is that no matter how bad the deed of the day was my SP family has taught me that instead of hating myself or throwing in the towel on that day I can at any point choose to do something healthy in that same day.
The best part is I am going into Easter knowing the “dangers” I have also recreated some of my favorites to be less calories and fat so I can still enjoy stuff I want just without all the not so good for me part.
I also have been starting to look at food with a weird thought, especially after I work out when someone offers something really high cal or fat I look at it and literally in vision it undoing all the hard work I just did. I can’t help but wonder if this is “normal” or if anyone else has started to think that way.