Friday, March 29, 2013
Today has been off to a good start. I've had some "lightbulb" moments and that's always good. I have been having a hard time at lunch with over-eating. I eat a good meal. It is always within my calorie range but when I am finished I want more. I am not hungry, I just want MORE food. Instead of stopping myself I give in and usually make 1 cup of white rice with 2 slices of reduced fat cheese in it. Sometimes it doesn't stop there. I can also give in to 1 or 2 frozen burritos in addition to the rice. Yikes!!! I know, that's not good and makes me feel bad after I eat it all.
I emailed my personal coach with my problem and she posed some questions for me to ask myself until we spoke today. I gave some thought to the questions and didn't have any answers until yesterday during my nap. My coach asked me about my emotions when all this was going on and suggested I concentrate on the positive emotions,...joy, happiness, etc. When I eat I am not bored or sad or lonely but I realized I am dissatisfied with what I've eaten. What will satisfy me more? I don't know yet. I have experimented with several lunch meals and so far the one that I really enjoyed (soup) the most is the one with too much sodium (even light soups have a lot of sodium when you eat the whole can). I do tend to be triggered by sodium.
Today while I was doing my Sparkcoach I came across a motivational article. www.sparkpeople.com/reso
It talked about positive self talk. the one thing I took away was "Look at the whole picture." To quote the article:
"No matter how persistent a problem seems to be, it is never the whole story. There will be times when you avoid a negative behavior and accomplish what you set out to do. Often, you can find the keys to successful behavior change by asking yourself what went right when you were successful (instead of asking what went wrong when you failed.)...Think back to the last time things went the way you wanted, figure out what was different then, and ask yourself how you can make that happen more often."
DUH!!! I've been looking at the problem in the wrong light. I need to focus on the positive. What did I do when I got it right??? How did I do it and focus on repeating those actions or behaviors. I've been driving myself crazy dwelling on the negative behaviors. Such an easy thing to do, but it was difficult finding the answer, but you do find the answer if you don't give up. That's the good thing on this journey. I never give up despite what happens. I just keep picking myself up and I go on. Now I am equipped to handle the negatives in the right way.