Friday, March 29, 2013
Well, it's been months since I posted a blog entry. I think I had given up. That voice in my head has been saying, "You might as well go ahead and eat that ice cream. You deserve it. You aren't really that overweight. Just go ahead and enjoy that food. It helps you get through all those long, boring days at work. Then at night, after dinner, that ice cream tastes so good!"
But then the next day the voice says, ďWell, you blew it again. Your stomach is so big you look pregnant. Your butt is so big. You will be in size 16s soon. You look ridiculous. Your feet can't hold up your big body. Your joints are getting a workout. But, you can't lose these 20 pounds. You've been trying to lose this weight for years now. You lost it while you were on Nutrisystem, but then you gained it all back. Even if you lose it again - you'll probably just gain it back. You don't have any kind of self-discipline. That is for other people. People like you, don't reach those kinds of goals. You're getting too old anyway. Just give up!
Waa, was, was. I decided to change the voice in my head. I have heard it said, ďYou have to set your mind and keep it set. You have to tell your mind what to think.Ē
So Iíve replaced those negative thoughts with these. ďI eat 1200-1500 calories per day. I donít eat ice cream, or candy, or cookies, or cake or pie.Ē I do eat lettuce, tomatoes, broccoli, sweet potatoes, etc. I do eat apples, bananas, oranges, and cantaloupe. I do eat chicken and fish and lean pork. I do eat brown rice and whole grains.Ē So I tell myself what I donít eat, but then I tell myself what I do eat. Things I really enjoy eating. I tell people around me, that Iím on a diet. Thatís why Iím not going to eat any cake. That seems to shut them up and let them know I mean business.
I let myself know what I donít eat, but then I remind myself what I do eat and want to eat to be healthy and get to my goal weight.
So far itís working for me. Oh! And Iím only going to weigh once per month. I am measuring my hips with a little string I cut when I measured myself one day. If the string is getting longer as I wrap it around my hips, I know Iím doing good. I was weighing every day, but Iím not going to let myself weigh but once a month.
I started this new way of thinking and behavior on March 20. My 60th birthday is October 15. So that is my goal date. That worked out pretty good.
So I tell myself, ďBy April 20, my grandsonís 3rd birthday, I will weigh 164. By May 20 I will weigh 160. By June 20 I will weigh 156. By July 20, I will weigh 152, by August 20, I will weigh 148, and by September 20 I will weigh 144.Ē My goal is 145 by my birthday on October 15, 2013. So, I am giving myself some wiggle room.
I tell myself how much I exercise. How many calories I burn per day.
Iím using positive affirmations and telling my mind what to think to reach my goal. Itís only been a few days, but so far so good.
I will try to keep my blog updated with my progress.