Thursday, March 28, 2013
We learned about the SMART concept in my sport psychology class in college and I have run into it a few times since then. Today my husband told me that he had to sit down at work and write out his goals for the upcoming fiscal year. He is at a new job and it is the first time he has really been able to be so involved in setting up goals for himself. I rattled off, "Oh, you should use the SMART system."
When he asked what it is...I froze. I knew the idea behind it. There are things you do when setting goals for yourself that makes you more likely to achieve those goals and beyond.
I just haven't really been applying that concept to my life most of the time.
I am not trying to blame this on being ill (really this has been a problem for the past couple years, not just since September). But RIGHT now...being sick makes having motivation to do anything really difficult. When I finished NaNoWriMo in November...I didn't really write anything again because I find my train of thought is...well....derailed. I sit down at the computer and can't remember what I'm doing. In conversations I even seem to lose my place. I don't know if it's from the anemia or just exhaustion of feeling sick 80 percent of the tie, but sometimes stringing sentences together (or even typing those sentences correctly), is difficult.
So I haven't been writing.
And since the reflare struck in January I haven't been exercising beyond some walking and usually the walking is just to stand and see if that helps my stomach...and if it's a long walk then I am just drained by the end.
So I haven't been working out.
And I do the bare minimum as far as housework (Chris has been pretty good about helping out), because again I just have to take breaks every half hour because it feels like my arms and legs are going to give out).
I have so much responsibility at work that to set goals to go above and beyond isn't happening because, quite frankly, they don't pay me enough for me to work on projects at home in my free time. Sometimes I am stretched so thin there that I don't think I am doing anything stellar, just a lot of things mediocre/good. Not to mention running to the bathroom all the time and refilling my water to ward off dehydration takes it out of you.
Today I realized that I turn 27 in 6 weeks or so, and I KNOW that's not old (I really hate when people tell me that I'm young and have plenty of time, etc. wasted time is wasted time and I feel that six months of illness and sleeping and curling up on the couch is wasting time) and instead of trying to think of something fun to do for my birthday, an image of me crying sprang into my mind.
Twenty-seven, married for two years and wanting babies but having no babies. Twenty-seven and making less money with more experience than I had 9 years ago as an 18 year old. Twenty-seven and overweight. Twenty-seven and fighting some condition or illness that we still haven't found. And then I go...by the time we figure out what's wrong....and get me healthy...and lose my weight...I will probably be 28 and without a baby too.
This wasn't supposed to be a depressing entry. I actually meant to make this an entry about applying SMART and how I was going to use it.
The timeline of my illness is somewhat beyond my control, but since right now it takes up most of my time (except for work), I will try to apply the concept to that.
A - Achievable
R - Reasonable
T - Timely
I want to have a diagnosis on whatever illness, condition, disorder, intolerance or disease is causing symptoms. I want to make a plan of action with my doctor to treat the illness or relieve the symptoms in the short term as well as the long term. I want to know within the next 8 weeks what the treatment is and begin treating so I can focus on my other goals in 2013 and beyond.
Does this sound like a S.M.A.R.T. goal? As long as this isn't some condition that is so rare it takes even longer to diagnose, I think this sounds like a reasonable and achievable goal.