Thursday, March 28, 2013
I heard her last night while I was driving.
She is fire.
She is the girl on fire.
She asked me what I was doing.
I told I didn't know. Secretly hanging my head in shame.
She told me "Don't worry, I got this"
I wanted to cry. I wanted to ask where had she been. I had so many questions. So many anxieties. So much shame. For eating away all of my pain and sorrows.
But I knew not to say a word. She was missing from my life so long and I had longed for her soo bad. Never realizing or knowing I was the one quitting her. I was the one silencing her for fear of what would happen to me.
I don't know how she came through the other side. I have no clue how she broke through but she did.
Taking over. Taking over the control that I was now relinquishing.
The inner guide. The inner spark.
I don't know how to describe her but she is here again.
PS she made me throw out my chocolate first thing when I got home! I almost went into the garbage to get it.