Thursday, March 28, 2013
My original goal was to be slimmer by summer and although im going down i'm still not comfortable in "summer clothes." So it just feels really depressing to go another year feeling frustrated and like crap everytime I get dressed, and having to deal with being overheated because I cant wear shorts and a tank top. I just don't see in the next couple months that I can lose enough weight to be small enough to wear what I want. To top it off I have major stress lately. I am going from one freelance job onto two structured jobs (I havnt been offered the 2nd one yet but im 95% sure i'll get it). I think I may just polietely deny the second one if offered. I know it would help me with bills and expenses but I just don't know if I can handle the stress of it. Is it more stress to work two jobs or to not be as finanically stable? I know alot of people work two jobs (and more!) and i commend them for it, but it may not be for me. This should be a happy time, I got my dream job, I have amazing people in my life, and I am working toward my goals. I prayed that god would help me, and he did but now that i have this overwhelming sense of stress I feel that I am being selfish instead of being thankful for him answering my prayers. I really need to get back on track.. I know things will get better once I start working
Take the second job or no? I really need advice.