Thursday, March 28, 2013
THANK YOU SO MUCH for the comments and sparkmails after my blog yesterday. They were much needed and appreciated. Sometimes the positive self-talk can only help so much and it helps to hear it from someone else (even if it's the same exact speech) somehow hearing it from someone else when you're down the the dumps makes it seem more valid. I guess I just needed validation that it's going to be ok.
After that post yesterday, I felt myself let go and forgive myself (which brought more tears) and I also went for a run.
It was hard to go. I felt paralyzed about my injury - worried that going on the run would hurt or make it worse. But I did it anyway. It was a GREAT run. Sure my PF felt it more afterward, but it didn't hurt at all during the run. I ran with Roscoe to keep things light but he kept going, so I kept going. It was his longest and one of my longer ones in recent times at 5 miles.
I forgot to mention that last weekend I also set a 10K PR. It's still a little soft compared to my half marathon PR, but given my training and the hills on the course, I was really skeptical of my chances of PRing going into that race. But I decided to really go for it, and I got it! I was sooooo happy.
So after that blog, I talked to my DH about it a little bit, too, and he was like - but you just ran a PR! And he continued to encourage me that I would get through this. He is the best!
So between him and you guys, I was really convinced to just let go of what I can't control and continue to be diligent and to do my best.
Also, SEEHOLZ mentioned a change of routine. Yes, I am still working on a new normal routine for myself which includes regular gym time. When I was losing weight, I was always going to the gym regularly. So this will be an important component of my new routine. I also wasn't running as much. I think I will still run more than I did then, but it will be more of a maintenance routine and less building to a big mileage load. My focus isn't on running right now.
I will still run and enjoy myself, but I think (pending any major changes later in the year, it's still early) that 2013 will be a marathon-less year, just like 2011 was. I can run a good half marathon off of a less intense training load, but I won't run 6 of them like I did last year either. We're also focusing on keeping my races local, so that will be fun.
I CAN DO THIS! This will pass and I will make it through this! Just think, if I throw in the towel on it all AND the hormones are having their way with me, I will just spiral into a blobby oblivion. I need to keep at it if just to combat the worst of it while I normalize.