Feeling kind of negative today
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
So I have a midterm tomorrow, a presentation tomorrow, a chapter to read on top of all my studying and prepping tonight. I still made time for the gym, and I'm going for a jog later tonight. Productive right? Somehow I feel like I'm failing. I lost 3 pounds this week. 174.6 last thursday to 171.6 this morning. Yet I ate HORRIBLY today. Cereal, banana, protein bar, pasta, cinnamon bun, and rice cakes and another half a cup of milk. I'm wayyy over my calories, even for netting - hence the run later. I did a 15 min (2 km) jog today, I did fit camp...I did weights. Somehow I feel like I'm failing.
I'm stronger, I'm faster, I have more stamina, I have better endurance. I lose 2-3 pounds a week, but this feels like the longest process EVER!!!!! I'm not even half way to my goal weight from where I started. I need to lose another 2.5 pounds for that...which I can do this week most likely, the way I've been going. I know lots of people that struggle to lose weight, so I kind of feel like a jerk for posting this, but seriously....I don't understand why I let myself get so fat!!! and I wasn't even at my heaviest when I started this. I was overweight, I knew I was obese...but I never really realized how far I let myself go until I started this. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate my results, I just feel like reaching my goal of 140 by september is going to be brutally hard, even if I do have a very active job this summer.
But at the end of the day I suppose being positive is what gets us through, so I'll push through the rest of this negative day and have a great workout tomorrow night at fit camp, and hopefully go for a jog tomorrow night. I like doing multiple workouts a day, it makes me feel more accomplished.