Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Today I had a bit of bad news and an emotional shock. As I sat and thought about what was happening, my heart pounding and emotions swirling, I realized I was about to get up and go into the kitchen. I wasn't physically hungry, but I just wanted to go and EAT. And EAT a lot. And the more sugar and fat and goo I could find, the better.
I sat and processed these feelings, and took a few deep breaths. I drank some coffee. I realized that my emotional tie to food is huge. It's how I make myself feel better. It's how I stuff down feelings, if only when I am eating the goo. Another thing occurred to me. I am a Christ follower. Why would I turn to food instead of to my heavenly father who wants to bless and care for me? That was an eye-opener. I immediately asked the Lord to help me, and I felt calmer.
SparkPeople has made me THINK about what I eat, and that is a huge gift. I am blessed, and so happy to have found this site.