Tuesday, March 26, 2013
I had an interaction with my difficult family member yesterday. I was treated with great disrespect. My normal reaction would be tears followed by some juvenile response but I stopped just long enough to think and called an al-anon member instead. Just talking to someone who already knows everything that goes along with these kinds of situations had me calmed down in five minutes. Then instead of going to the fridge to drown my feelings in food, I hopped on the treadmill and ran for ten minutes.
I had so much less anxiety about the current situation and for the first time recognized that trapped feeling and fought back instead of self destructing. This is a huge victory for me and I am still grateful for it today.
The depression still has me in its grip but I am surprised to find myself doing it differently this time around. Perhaps it will pass more quickly because of it. Until then, I will be thankful for it every day it is here so I can practice making healthy choices despite feeling so lethargic.
I went to the lab today and gave the doc his blood. My appointment is on Thursday and no matter what he sees in my blood, good or bad, I will roll with it and continue to make healthy choices. I am trying not to be anxious. But, I am just the same. I am not sure why I feel like I am going to the principal's office. My doctor is very nice and he really cares about me. Besides, I can show him that I am in the process of changing my habits for the long term. Just because I got off track does not mean I wont keep going forward. I thought about telling him I weighed less but that will only hurt me in the long run as he needs all the facts if he is to care for me properly.
Have a good evening, Friends! Sparkpeople are the best people!