Tuesday, March 26, 2013
There is a new comment thread titled SELF FAT ACCEPTANCE MOVEMENT, HEALTHY OR NOT. This great thread is asking if it is OK to be overweight and still like and accept themselves. The discussion is spirited and not surprisingly, quite varied, and that is a good thing. How each of us feel is valued and deserve to be heard. In my opinion, and that is all it is, an opinion, is that if one is HEALTHY then it is OK (sort of) to be content with one’s overweightness. In my case, I was so heavy at my peak that I did not like my appearance at all but not enough to change my lifestyle. Sometimes that Ah-Ha moment is sloooow to appear.
Health problems related to my weight situation came into my "life" and the motivation started to change. I began to realize that I had to do something serious when if I bent over to pick something off the floor, I thought my head was going to explode. Then one day I walked down to our mail box about a ¼ mile away and realized that I could take only a few steps and had to rest. Diagnosis, CHF, or Congestive Heart Failure. That was a real shocker. Then came the yo-yo diet world. This probably caused more problems than it solved. I was proven right, in 1991 I had a heart attack went to the doctor on Monday and was under the knife of Tuesday for a 4-way bypass. But then stupidity took over and I gained it all back by 1995. It’s a good thing stupidity is not against the law.
Diagnosed with T2 diabetes in 1996. What a bummer day that was but I took it with the conviction that I could manage it and life a functional life. I used brute force to get down to around 240 lbs. and again, felt that I had made “my goal” weight. Sheer folly.
Now I knew why it is so important to lose the weight. Prior to SP, I always set my goal weight too high and would use that false number to say "I'm done, I made goal" but the health issues persisted.
We moved to Arizona in 2008 and went in for a routine heart exam with my new Cardio. No symptoms what so ever but the stress test said that I had some more blockages and they attempted to install stents but that was unsuccessful. The only other option was CABG number two. Then I finally got the message. AH-HA I said to myself.
The diabetes was raging and I was having find the correct med protocol to get it under control. Multiple hypoglycemic events every week. Intolerance to Metformine and finally on Lantus which worked with careful testing and insulin doses calculated with care. This was not fun.
Then SP came into my life in 2011 at a weight of 226 and I dedicated my entire being to getting healthy, no matter what my weight. Lo and behold, as I came down to a realistic goal, my overall health became normal. i.e. diabetes in full remission - blood pressure from way too high to now trying to get it higher, and other issues as well. I still have serious weakened muscle strength and balance issues but we are attacking these now.
I am not trying to preach here, only giving insight as to my story. Now that I am at a REAL goal weight, I still feel fat. Don't know why this is, but it is true. I can honestly say that I like my body more than ever (except for all that left over skin) but I kick myself in the rear for not doing this earlier in my life. I am 77 and if I can "buy" another few years by being healthy, I am up for it. I do preach to my sons as four of the five are overweight. So far it falls on deaf ears but I can hope and being dad, I can preach as much as I want. I keep hoping that leading by example will take hold with them before they get too old to really enjoy a healthy long life.
Now I am in maintenance which is already proving that this new road is tougher than losing it. I will take it like I always do.
One palm tree at a time.