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Bye-bye scale

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

I've done it, finally, said good-bye to the scale. I haven't hidden it yet, but I will if I have to. I have sabatoged too many good days by hopping onto the scale first thing in the morning, and feeling defeated instantly. I decided I'm going to go by other things, like how my clothes fit, energy levels and overall spark to determine how I feel about my progress. If I can keep the spark burning with fitness, and nutrition for a few month I might weigh myself, maybe, maybe not. I'd rather go by clothes, and overall energy levels instead of a number on the scale. I am so tired of defining myself by that number and either mentally punishing or rewarding myself based on that number. It is maddening, and I'm over it. I've weighed myself nearly everyday for over a year now, and it's been quite a huge hangup for me. I knew it was a problem, but now I'm finally ready to do something about it. I think this is a really great step for me. I've read many blogs from sparkers who have done the same thing, and had success, so that is my plan. I'm not sure what positive motivation I will use for my new ticker, but I'm sure I'll figure it out. I really just need to see myself, and my SLOW progress as positive so that I can move forward. And weighing myself everyday, and being fixated on the number on the scale is not helping me, at all. I must get beyond that and into a mindset that takes into account various aspects of my whole health, not just my weight.

I worked with a young girl recently, who weighs over 100 pounds more than I do, and she lost 100 pounds recently. I learned so much from her about self esteem and true beauty. Although she is quite a bit heavier than me, she is absolutely beautiful on the inside and out. She is in a very loving relationship, and has tons of friends. She is busy socially in the community and is always getting invited to do things. She is a great person, in countless ways. I learned from her, that weight is just a number that doesn't mean anything unless you let it. I am not going to let my weight determine my self worth anymore. I am a great person, at any weight. I want to be healthier, and I'm never giving up on that, but as of today I am done letting my weight, or the scale make or break my self esteem, and negatively affect my days, and relationships.

I am hoping that this freedom will allow me to open up to the natural process of wanting to be healthy based on things that really affect my life, like capabilities, energy levels and self esteem. When I am living healthy, I feel better about myself, it's that easy. It doesn't matter what I weigh, as long as I am choosing healthy activities on a daily basis that make me feel like I am treating myself and my body the way I deserve............which means not kicking myself everytime my weight fluctuates a few ounces.

OK, that feels better to get that out. I have read multiple articles on this topic.....and it finally sunk in. I think my self worth amounts to much more than what my scale's just simple really.

Here's to new ways to love ourselves, our whole selves, regardless of any reasons we may think we have to feel inferior to what we really are, which is eternally divine.
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    I think there are up sides and down sides to weighing yourself. I would not get on a scale for years and as those years went by I grew more and more fat.

    Had I gotten on a scale I might have become more concerned about my weight and done something about it sooner.

    I never knew what my top weight was and never will. I was a size 26. That is all I know.

    I use the scale not only to measure my progress, but to give me a number so when a doctor or other health professional asks me, I know how much I weigh. Period.

    When I was morbidly obese I used to say that if I stepped on a scale it would throw me into a black pit of depression because when I saw the number it was always bad. Very, very bad. How could any self-respecting person "let" themselves "get that way?" Answer: Ignorance. Plain and simple. Once you know something about food - like what to eat and how much for maximum health benefits, then the scale becomes just a tool for measuring.

    But try as any one may, getting on the scale and NOT seeing what you would like to see can definitely set a negative mood for the day, unless you are the type of person who can say, "Oh. The number is up. Must do something about that now. I will go for a walk and really monitor my food intake over the next week." Being able to say that comes with practise.

    You are not a number, but the number gives you information so you can make good decisions.
    1817 days ago
    Absolutely awesome! YOU are a wonderful person. The scale should be a tool not an obsession (I know, been there, done that).

    Get healthy, feel great! You can handle that!
    1817 days ago
    do what feels good for you, keep it up, and you'll see results, scale be damned. i haven't jumped on mine in a while, and it feels good to be free, working on doing EVERYTHING i need to be doing, but i am getting back there slowly, at least i'd like to think so!
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    1818 days ago
    In my opinion, the scale is nothing more than a tool. If the tool doesn't work for your project? emoticon Frigging toss the sucker!

    I am super stoked that you discovered that it was not working for you at this juncture. Permanently or doesn't really matter. Loosing weight (our protection) is a tricky matter. It is not all number and "figures". It really is SO MUCH more than that. We are not shallow beings. We are not to be measured by numbers. Learning to listen to your inner voice and trusting yourself to love yourself into a healthy lifestyle is so soooooo much more important. More important than anything.

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    It sounds like you have great priorities!! emoticon
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