On self hatred
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Okay, in the past I have posted about self love and today I'm thinking about self hatred. The negative self talk is easy to come by and far more cruel and incessant than the commentary we would offer anyone else. Merciless. Whether it's self critique about appearance, performance, value or relationship interactions the inner voice has something to say.
I knew a man once who named the critic as a way of separating that from himself. I don't know if he called it Marvin or Caleb or simply "critic," but he wanted to remind himself that it was something outside of him, attacking him, through him. I'm not sure if I expressed that clearly. Once he separated it from himself he recognized the negative voice and felt free to contradict it with the truth.
"I've lost x amt of lbs since I started. I'm making progress. ---truth
"I screw everything up"----marvin
"I'm new at this and learning from my mistakes"-----truth
I heard another man speak on this issue. He said that we are God's creation and that if we can appreciate the beauty in nature and can credit it to him as excellent artwork-we insult our maker when we go on and on about how horrible what he made has become.
Hatred is the motivation for murder and often times self hatred is the motivator in suicide. If someone is there to cause harm...steal, kill or destroy-do we want to allow our bodies to be used for that either towards others or ourselves. If hatred makes us bitter when it is aimed at others, does it make us less bitter to be angry with ourselves? What if we agreed that our body, mind and abilities are something divinely created and of value? I'm just thinking on this. I haven't overcome this personally...but I don't think I ever will unless I challenge myself on it.