Tuesday, March 26, 2013
I've never been one to rise early and enjoy it - NEVER. No one who knows me will ever call me an "early bird" or "sunshine" without flinching to my immediate reaction.
But I have self-diagnosed one recent problem. I work a pretty intense job at a global consulting company, but I also go to grad school and was recently studying for a certification exam in addition to all of it! I was truly exhausted but at the same time couldn't sleep. I can usually sleep anytime, anywhere, but the anxiety and stress of expecting so much from myself was taking a toll. I literally couldn't get out of bed before 8:30 and didn't roll in to work until 10 sometimes 11 am. (this behavior was not appreciated btw). But I tried everything - going to bed at 9, exercising, eating earlier, no TV, reading. EVERYTHING. None of it worked.
I was seriously worried and everything was suffering for it. Well, I took my exam on Friday, after studying all week on very poor sleep, and passed. AHHHH - what a relief. Monday morning rolls around, I am up and out of bed at - wait for it - 6:15 am - well rested and ready to conquer the world.
I had no idea the stress I was causing myself. I can't imagine how else this was effecting me. I will say over the past week it was really difficult to stay on plan and to get to the gym. But on Monday morning it was like someone hit reset. I got my smoothies together for lunch and breakfast and had my veggie sandwich for dinner.
This is just another lesson learned. Sometimes, without knowing it, you're out of control. I'm not sure what I could have done differently to make it better, but I'm glad it's over. I have 9 months left until I complete my masters, I can't wait to see what it feels like to have "time" after two and a half years of living on a pre-determined schedule.
Have a great week, everyone. I plan to!