Tuesday, March 26, 2013
In my house, we have a standing joke that as soon as I click "send" on a race registration, something happens. Since I recently registered for the half marathon in October, I'm really not laughing this time.
For the last few years, I've been suffering from undiagnosed fatigue. Not just "tired" fatigue--overwhelming "I need to take a nap" fatigue. Despite the fatigue, I had always been able to push through the day and get my workouts done. Until last week...
Now the fatigue has turned into almost falling asleep at my desk or while driving. Scary. Last week's attempts at working out were terrible, and often left me in tears wondering if, even with 7 months time, I could possibly be ready for a half marathon. I've had so many tests, and just completed another round of thyroid blood work and an ultrasound. The ultrasound shows a few nodules on my thyroid (I don't even know what that means); the blood work came back as 4.87--which they said is normal. Everything's normal. The nurse even indicated that I should be "fine" to wait until my follow up with the doctor on April 29. I quickly snapped that I am definitely not fine.
I don't really know where to go at this point. The doctor's office indicated that the earliest I can see my primary dr. is April 29. I'm not sure if I should push to see an endocrineologist since I have all the symptoms of hypothyroid. Or do I just let it go and wait until I can see my primary?
Meantime I have to develop a new plan for working out. The easy answer would be to just throw in the towel and give in to this fatigue. But I refuse to give up on the progress I have made. If I can't do a whole long run, I will try to break it up into a few shorter runs, and hope that helps me continue to build my endurance until I feel better. I tried that on Sunday, and it worked pretty well. Hopefully, as I do that, I will be able to continue to extend the distance a little at a time until I get back to doing it all at once.
So, I might not be the same exercise maniac that I have been, but I am making adjustments so that I can hopefully be that person again. I could definitely use some positive thoughts and healing vibes sent my way.
I am NOT giving up!