Monday, March 25, 2013
I'm simply confounded. I can wear smaller pants but I still get that "icky" feeling like I'm gaining weight. Perhaps it's just bloating. Perhaps it's my guilt coming to haunt me because my incapability to get to the gym as often as I would like.
I feel gross. I feel I look gross. It's just awful. I've been downing smoothies for breakfast or lunch, trying to make myself feel better about all this. I'm afraid to even check that scale. Okay, I checked: 272. Okay, it's not the million pounds I feel like. Still it's not the 267 that I had previously seen.
I've been thinking about dating a lot lately and I must say my weight fluctuations are not making me feel sexy at all. Eww is more the word. I don't know how I'm supposed to do this whole thing. Bah....