Monday, March 25, 2013
About 7 years ago, I lost 180 pounds...my first and only major weight loss of my adult life. I did this using Food Addicts. I started out depending on God, but ended up depending on myself, and taking the glory and credit for myself.
This time I want God to get ALL the glory, not me. I can do nothing without Him. This is humbling for me. I got alot of "motivation" during my prior weightloss because of people noticing the rapid changes.....I lost the weight in about a year and a half following a very restricted diet. I started to depend on that. I loved seeing people's faces. Loved hearing my co-workers say how much they admired me or my discipline. I would say thanks and think how awesome I was----and I forgot to give God the glory. He enabled me to have that weight loss, and He alone will enable me this time. I can do nothing without Him.
I'm NOT saying that is why I gained my weight back. I gained my weight back because of sinful choices and bad habits the past several years. I don't see it as a punishment. I'm just saying I want to keep my focus on Him, and rely on His strength. And I want Him to have the glory. Because, truly, I do not have the strength myself to lose the volume of weight I would like to lose.
This post is written out of deep Christian convictions---so if you aren't a Christian and are reading this....it might seem silly or trite----but to me, this is important. I am not saying I can't be happy or enjoy my weight loss, but the bottom line is, I want my heart to be in the right place, and my heart can only be at rest when I am relying on God for His strength, and seeking His glory rather than my own. I've learned this lesson the hard way many times in life, for I am a proud, sufficient "do it yourself-er" type of gal. It can be good, and it can be bad.
All I know is last time I started taking much credit myself, and I don't want to do that again. I have been reading through the Old Testament, and I see how God went to battle for the Israelites so many times, and gave them the victory against seemingly insurmountable odds. (Thank David and Goliath, think crossing the Red Sea, think leaving Egypt). He wanted the glory for Himself---so that it would not be on account of the people. He did this to humble them, because He loved them deeply and wanted them to rely on Him.
If I can get this weight off again, it is only because of God's help---and it is also my job to do my best---for His glory alone, and because He loves me, and He gave me this body to live in, and I need to care for it in a way that honors Him.