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Tracking is the hardest thing!

Monday, March 25, 2013

I tracked again today and I HATE having to be honest! But this is the one thing that is successful. And now I am stewing: to weigh in or not to weigh in tomorrow? If I am up in pounds, I have only myself and a week off from honesty to blame. If I don't weigh in because I am afraid of seeing that number go up, I am being ruled by the scale. On the other hand, I've had a couple of days of good hard workouts, so maybe, just maybe, I am not as up as I fear.
I think I will try weighing in, because after all, that's the one number that I am keeping track of, and try to remain philosophical about the results. HAH. Good luck with that one. So hard to not get depressed when we see that we might not achieve our goals exactly on the little schedule we have predetermined for ourselves! Silly! Because what is this goal about, really? Is it about health, or happiness, or being a good example for the little fellas? No, it's about my fervent desire to look a certain way on the beach in, lets see, 75 days.
Ultimately, when faced with the cheese filled pastry of my partners people (Armenian burek--butter is a chief ingredient), the question doesn't come down to me remembering that I want to be healthy or that I want to look fit (okay, ripped would be great). The question becomes, how much of this can I get away with eating?
That, my Spark Friends, is why tracking is the hardest part. Because having to be honest about the cheese pie makes me feel ashamed and a little gross. No one wants to watch a chubby girl stuff herself! Eeesh. And listen to that self-talk. Disaster!

Okay let's turn this around: I accept myself unconditionally, as I am RIGHT NOW.

and my student creed from my dojo:
I intend to develop myself in a positive manner and to avoid anything that could reduce my mental growth or physical health.
I intend to develop SELF DISCIPLINE, in order to bring out the best in myself and others.
I intend to use what I learn in class constructively and defensively, to benefit myself and my fellow human beings, and never to be abusive or offensive.

For the third statement, you could replace "in class" with "on Spark People", and you would pretty much have it right. And to remember not to be abusive or offensive--to ourselves.
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    I agree tracking is hard because it is time consuming but worth the effort.

    And yes there are more ways to judge success than the scale.
    1821 days ago
    I hate tracking, and it has a very negative effect on me. I gain weight every time I try it. So I've developed a very different way. If I wanted that cheese pastry, doughnut, cream bun, I would tell myself that I had permission to eat, and enjoy it, slowly in a civilised manner, BUT, I couldn't have my main meal as well. Either/or, not both. My choice.

    I'm not particularly successful at losing weight, though I have lost 50lbs, it's taken my 5 years, and there's been a lot of ups and down during that time, but my relationship with food is very good. It's stopped the agonizing, the feeling bad, and the cravings. I'd leave the weigh in till next week, it's only the tool, not the master.
    1821 days ago
    Oooohhh, tough one. Part of me would agree that you have to put on your big girl panties and deal with whatever number comes up on the scale, because we have to learn to deal with hard truths, and learn how to make peace with the number and not let it derail us. Then part of me wants to tell you to not step on the scale, you are more than a number, and the most important thing is how you feel about yourself--and if a trip to the scale could jeapordize your good feelings, then it is not worth it. Ultimately, you are the only person wise enough to make this choice. Go with your gut feeling, and remember, regardless of what you choose, we support you all the way.
    1821 days ago
  • STAY39
    Great job tracking! I have had quite a few "gross eating days" myself but I always track the best I can. Not necessarily to learn from it but more because I know if I stop tracking I may stop trying. So fear drives me at this point I guess. One bad day (or week) will not define you or your weight loss journey. We are human and if we don't enjoy life what kind of life is it. It's all good! If the scale is up - you know why and you also know what to do next. You've got this! emoticon
    1821 days ago
    Don't use just the weigh ins to judge your progress! Check your measurements, energy level, how your clothes feel. These also help. Good luck!
    1821 days ago
    Tracking trumps weighing.
    1821 days ago
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