caught in a trap
Monday, March 25, 2013
So, old man winter and Mother Nature must be having a battle of wills or maybe they are in cahoots to play April Fools Day jokes on us all!!!
The snow is continuing here and reported to get heavier into the night, its miserably cold and makes me feel even more dark and depressed.
But I did fix a nice healthy veggie laden dinner for myself, and get in a workout.
Did some laundry and cleaned a little.
Seems theres just not much to do anymore.
I am very bored in my life.
I am struggling with this personal issue...of overcoming boredom and lonliness and depression.
I am usually pretty upbeat, but lately I cant find the humor in much.
I keep hoping once summer gets here, I will feel better, or differently, but I am unsure at this point.
Wondering if antidepressants are in order....
I know more exercise will help, and once I am able to walk again, I will have that at least.
So, overall, this day is pretty miserable....cold, wet, snowy, dark, no tanning bed, no sunlight, not much to do at all.
Wollow in self pity I suppose.
And keep searching for answers....and a laugh or two.
I dont really feel bad...I feel ok...just really wishing there was something to do.
or that this dark cloud would finally lift and move on....
Tuesdays are usually weigh in day for me, although I think I will skip tomorrow.
I really see no point in it, I know I havent lost since last week and I sure dont want to see it if I have gained.
Maybe one more full week of healthier food choices and exercise will make some bit of difference.
I really want to start losing weight again.
I am pretty sick and tired of being stuck in a rut.