Monday, March 25, 2013
I've been so tired lately. The last 7 weeks, 6 of those weeks I've exercised 6 days of that week. And, usually it's an hour a day, some times a little less or more. I'm proud, I wanted to amp it up a bit, and it feels good to keep active in the winter. And it counter-acts days I don't eat the best. But, again, I feel so tired.
My youngest who is 3, just hasn't been sleeping well at all. I think I'm on week 3 of repeated awakenings at night. Some times I've lost track HOW many times I've had to get up. :( Some nights we were up for a whole hour at a time.
On top of that, stress level here at home is terrible. So much is going on personally that it's just overwhelming most days. I thought working out would help manage it, however last week I came to the conclusion I was doing too much and it was making it much worse. There were many days I just freaked out on my youngest I was all of a sudden so angry. That's not normal. So, I guess I'm not super mom and I guess I need a break. That is what my body was trying to tell me.
Last week I worked out 5 days instead of 6, and some days were only for a half hour. I hate to take a whole week off completely- it worries me I may not want to go back! It kind of worked out as last week I did something to my neck, then later in the week my ankle felt bad while running. Anyway, it's Monday and it's already been a long day. Ideally I'd like to be on my exercise bike, but I feel like my body is telling me I need to sit down and rest/read a book. Usually I push through that feeling, but lately it's felt different, I really feel like I need REST.
So, again, debating what I want to do not only this week, but the next few months. Maybe I need to back off. I've been working out and counting calories like crazy, and I just don't think I can keep a lower weight than I am at. I'm hungry a lot, even when I pile on the healthy low cal stuff which gives me volume. IDK, it's fine, I know I look great, I guess we just always have a picture in our heads of how we can look *better*. And, I'm always up for a challenge. Maybe now the challenge is to learn to take it easy and rest?