Monday, March 25, 2013
Wow, I didn't realize I hadn't posted anything for over a month. There is actually a good reason for that. I need to come clean so here it is. I am pretty much starting over from day 1. I finally decided to just start over with a clean slate. It seems like every time I lose weight I end up weighing more than when I started. I haven't reached that point yet, but I thought I better get my act together before I do.
I do not have a good relationship with food. No kidding, right? Back in the day, i.e. when I was a lot younger, when I was nervous or upset, I literally could not eat. I could not swallow food. I was super thin, but not healthy. That is not good. Now that I am A LOT older I realize that when I am nervous or upset, the first thing I reach for is something unhealthy to eat. It wouldn't be bad if I was reaching for an apple or some carrots, but no, I want Reeses' Peanut Butter Cups or M&Ms.
So frustrating, but I'm not giving up!