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Oops, confession time

Monday, March 25, 2013

Wow, I didn't realize I hadn't posted anything for over a month. There is actually a good reason for that. I need to come clean so here it is. I am pretty much starting over from day 1. I finally decided to just start over with a clean slate. It seems like every time I lose weight I end up weighing more than when I started. I haven't reached that point yet, but I thought I better get my act together before I do.

I do not have a good relationship with food. No kidding, right? Back in the day, i.e. when I was a lot younger, when I was nervous or upset, I literally could not eat. I could not swallow food. I was super thin, but not healthy. That is not good. Now that I am A LOT older I realize that when I am nervous or upset, the first thing I reach for is something unhealthy to eat. It wouldn't be bad if I was reaching for an apple or some carrots, but no, I want Reeses' Peanut Butter Cups or M&Ms.

So frustrating, but I'm not giving up!
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ILOVEMALI 4/15/2013 3:27AM

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    I just did a BRIEF perusal of your recent blogs and I'd say you've got a lot going on in your life and admitting you have a "relationship" with food and you are working on changing what it is is a GREAT thing. You've got this. You CAN and you WILL move forward with reinvigorated resolve and a healthy relationship with food in your renewed journey!

I loved your sharing about your F.I.L. It sounds like he did have a great attitude and would love for you to adopt some of it too in his honor. Flip off the chocolate in Lee's honor!

Good luck with the work changes!

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SKEEWEE2MEK 3/25/2013 8:50PM

    Don't ever stop starting! Eventually you will reach your goals. emoticon emoticon

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KIYOSHI04 3/25/2013 8:18PM

    its hard and for most of us, will be a lifelong battle.

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NHES220 3/25/2013 1:48PM

    The first step is realizing that you have a problem with food. You need to come up with another coping mechanism other than reaching for food, even if it is healthy food. Go for a walk, phone a friend, meditate. You need to break the cycle with food. But you can do it! We've all been there, losing weight and ending up weighing more than we did when we started, but it is never too late to tackle the problem. Good for you for joining SparkPeople and giving it another go!

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SHERYLDS 3/25/2013 12:34PM

    You know what you need to do
and you know what you want for yourself.

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MARIANNE9855 3/25/2013 11:49AM

    Better late than never as they say... emoticon emoticon

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CLASSYLADYMAY 3/25/2013 11:32AM

    Good for you ! That's one thing to realize what we do to gain. So be prepared with healthy snacks. And maybe get rid all bad ones. ! I know u can do this !!

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