Monday, March 25, 2013
I have been stuck.
I tell myself mean things and keep myself stuck.
I have been off of sugar for 5 days so far. I am making progress. I am following my plan to ride 10 miles every weekday during spring break. I did it on Friday and again today.
So I listened to a talk on my ipod. The person was talking about the choices that we make and the tough times that happen in life. After talking about someone's struggles the speaker talked about choosing joy. I have been thinking about that since.
Belittling myself for my past failures does not bring me joy.
Eating candy seems to be a false sense of joy. I think I will love the taste. I only like it. I know that it makes me feel sick or at least off. How ever I would describe it the experience is not joyful. Eating home made bread might be more joyful but over eating because it is there is certainly not.
Learning from mistakes can bring me joy if I don't wallow in the sadness of making the mistake. So it is far better to look at what I learned and remind myself that from now on I am looking at the possibilities and I am choosing well.
I am being kind to myself when I clean the bathroom, workout or some other accomplishment and I tell myself good job. I am being kind to myself when I take a bit of time to enjoy a craft, or a movie with the kids after we have gotten the chores done.
Looking for the joy and borrowing that from the future instead of trouble and what if. I will get to a place where I am happy with my weight. I can do this.
I am committing today to giving up flour along with the sugar. I am not doing well with the moderation and I want my blood sugar to be more steady. I will add it back when I don't feel so addicted.