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Borrowing joy.

Monday, March 25, 2013

I have been stuck.

I tell myself mean things and keep myself stuck.

I have been off of sugar for 5 days so far. I am making progress. I am following my plan to ride 10 miles every weekday during spring break. I did it on Friday and again today.

So I listened to a talk on my ipod. The person was talking about the choices that we make and the tough times that happen in life. After talking about someone's struggles the speaker talked about choosing joy. I have been thinking about that since.

Belittling myself for my past failures does not bring me joy.
Eating candy seems to be a false sense of joy. I think I will love the taste. I only like it. I know that it makes me feel sick or at least off. How ever I would describe it the experience is not joyful. Eating home made bread might be more joyful but over eating because it is there is certainly not.

Learning from mistakes can bring me joy if I don't wallow in the sadness of making the mistake. So it is far better to look at what I learned and remind myself that from now on I am looking at the possibilities and I am choosing well.

I am being kind to myself when I clean the bathroom, workout or some other accomplishment and I tell myself good job. I am being kind to myself when I take a bit of time to enjoy a craft, or a movie with the kids after we have gotten the chores done.

Looking for the joy and borrowing that from the future instead of trouble and what if. I will get to a place where I am happy with my weight. I can do this.

I am committing today to giving up flour along with the sugar. I am not doing well with the moderation and I want my blood sugar to be more steady. I will add it back when I don't feel so addicted.
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    1822 days ago
    You can do it! Moderation is tough for me too but abstinence gets easier and reprograms you!
    1824 days ago
    I have no medical reason to give up flour OR sugar, but I have found that I don't crave carbs nearly as much since I started eating them less often.

    When I have something starchy it's at dinner only, where I used to OFTEN eat toast with eggs for breakfast, a sandwich at lunch, and a baked potato at dinner. And something starchy for a snack!

    It is really important to accept yourself, and I sense you have a hard time with that. Whenever you have an ugly thought ask yourself: "Would I say that to a friend or to someone at church? To one of my children?" If the answer is NO then stop it!

    An old technique for stopping negative behaviors/thoughts is to wear a rubber band on your wrist and SNAP IT when you need to stop something in its tracks. For instance, if you start fantasizing about how good that chocolate bar will taste, SNAP YOURSELF and give yourself a new, more positive message! "This will NOT make me feel good, it will make me feel horrible as soon as it is gone. This candy will NOT get me closer to my goal!"

    I am glad you found that podcast helpful; what was it?

    1824 days ago
    emoticon emoticon Take it one baby step at a time!
    1824 days ago
  • MRSVK11
    emoticon Blog, "Looking for the joy and borrowing that from the future instead of trouble " What a fabulous concept!!!
    1824 days ago
    Sounds like you got your mindset exactly where you want it to be! You're doing great! emoticon
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