Monday, March 25, 2013
I have low self-esteem.
It probably has something to do with how my mom moved to Florida when I was 14.
I feel like this is the biggest reason why I have gained a whopping 80 pounds between then and now.
I am 23 years old and I have never been more unhappy with my body.
This is the time where I should be having the time of my life. Bonding with friends and dating.
I have never dated. I am scared.
And I don't feel good about myself.
I dont feel like anyone would want me.
And when I get motivated to lose weight it is normally because I want to show people that I a hard working person or because I want to be accepted by them. Or because I dont believe that the guy would like me if I don't lose weight.
Tonight I have decided that I need to do this for me. I can't get depressed about these situations I face and indulge in junk.
I can't do this for anyone else but me.
If people don't accept me at my worst they don't deserve me at my best.
I need to do this for me. I need to take care of myself the way I would want to take care of someone.
This is important. This is my life.