Mindset and breaking bad habits
Sunday, March 24, 2013
I'm still sugar free most days. I've lost weight (yeah!) Most of it's because of my determination to remain sugar free, but I think some of it's because I've been sick for a few days. On the other hand, if I wasn't so resilient in my determination to remain sugar free, I would have given in to "comfort foods" while I was sick, or gone back to my old habits of eating CRAP even though I was sick (and even though I wasn't hungry). That was just sick, sick, sick (and I mean that in the emotional sense.)
However, today, I was feeling a little bit better, and I really wanted some sweets. I had been planning for about 24 hours that today-TODAY-I deserved to have some sweets. (why? I don't know why. Maybe because I lost some weight? Maybe because I haven't had any in quite some time....maybe just because). So I walked into a store. And a looked and looked. And found some yummy ice cream. Small container. Walked around the store with it in my hand. Then decided it wasn't worth it. I could find other ways of meeting my sweet tooth.
There will be another day and another battle. I fought it Friday in the drugstore. And won. Fought it today. And won. I don't know what makes me think that I "deserve" these sweets.
I deserve to treat myself with dignity and respect, and sugary ice cream and Oreos never did that to me.
I'll also say this. One complaint I have about being a fat person is that, as impossible as it seems, I am often invisible to people. People have no respect for me because of my weight. I remember a number of years ago I lost alot of weight, people treated me so differently. Like a different person, you might say. Sad, but true. (when I "went back on" sugar and wheat, I gained all the weight back, and then some)
I know that God wants me to eat healthy. I know that my body houses His Holy Spirit, therefore, it is holy, therefore I must treat it with respect. There is nothing wrong with sugar in and of itself, but, for me, I, (humanly) have a tough time handling it. (I want it all the time!), so, for now, I'll get my sweets other ways (Stevia, fruit, etc). I want to honor God. I know He has plans for me.