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Sunday, March 24, 2013

Boring Blog ... but I need to put in on paper.

Spring is here and what I see out the window is this!

So, if I wait for the grass to grow before I get back on track, I might be disappointed!

Two years ago I completed the Spring into Shape Challenge and I tried the Tame your Sweet tooth Challenge too... With some introspection, I realized that I have a tendency to apply the "All or Nothing... " I my own words it means when I do something, I do it right - I give it my best.

Since the beginning of the year, my biggest struggle is CONSISTENCY! ...

With food, I don't restrict myself to the nothing (like no sweets...or restricting certain food); see today I am having BBQ!!!

I know how to satisfy my craving with healthy recipes, like my desert last night:
Cocoa- Cinnamon Tapioca (145 cal, 5 gr Fat and 8 gr Proteins)
See my recipe at: recipes.sparkpeople.com/

.. or tonight a Strawberry Yojo (50 cal!) Recipe at: recipes.sparkpeople.com/

My problem is not my cravings, it is my emotional eating.
I have this self fulfilling prophecy lately, because I am not successful at reaching my goals, I allow myself to fail and so on... my thinking goes like this:
- I feel bad and stressed...
- My stomach is all knots
- I know it is not rational - it is EMOTIONAL
- Since I am feeling bad - may as well feel bad for a reason: So I eat ! ... therefore my binge episode truly makes me feel bad (physically) and I now have a reason to feel the way I feel ...

I track everything (the good and the bad!) and when I fail... I think "I really failed"!
I started a in-range streak in order to see the scale moving (yeah, the 8 to 10 extra... not a big deal but worse, I really don't like it when it goes up!). I broke my streak Friday but I made up for it yesterday... Some call this cheat days... I don't think this is working for me.

With exercise: I set up goals - mostly running... For over one month now (since my last race) I have not been able to have one regular week of training.... On top of that, since Thursday I am at a "Stop Point" because of excruciating lower back pain that irradiate up to my knee on my left side. I went for a massage on Friday and I have a second appointment tomorrow. I went for nice walks but that is the extend of what I can do for now...and doing my stretches ...
Maybe I was doing too much or too intense! Even with what is suppose to help me, yoga...especially the power yoga might be too much or too focus on my weaknesses - my lower back and hips...

Which lead me to question my strategies...

Here is how I am going to reach my summer goals - yeah, SUMMER.

I read an article on Spark this morning that suggest to have a positive approach - not look at what we do wrong but instead, look at what we do when we have a good day, identify the contributing factors and just REPEAT !

Food - tracking works! No cheat... When feeling stressed, grab a cup of green tea and meditate for 15 min. Restaurant and take out are difficult situation. In best cases, I can check out the menu before, in other case, I will manage the rest of the day accordingly.

Exercise - If I want to do a good season of races, I need to slow down. I think this is what my body is trying to say. I am doing the ALL (even when I go for a short 5k - I think I push it too much... and I did not take the time to recover...) I will take this week easy and I will get back to a running training plan.

I know I am repeating myself here - let's call it re-assessing!
13 April: Houston (TX) - 5km
25 May: Ottawa - 10km - Canadian Armed Forces Running Championship. I was going to run a full marathon the next day, but I will keep this for later...
7 June - RELAY for LIFE (not a race but surely an event
I finally decided that I will do a half-marathon at the start of the season.
16 June: In my town!!! Barrie Half-marathon
July - Jeff and I are going to hike the West Coast trail - 80 km in 3 days (not flat!) - Not a race - just an Active challenging vacation! After that point, I am not so sure...

August and Sept - training... I might do the Army Run Half-Marathon
I am looking for a full marathon in the fall. Local or destination... Maybe Vegas!

Emma (my 17yo daughter) is considering training for her first HM. It might be cool to do together - so not trying to do a PB - the Disney Run.

I think I need to shift my training focus on not always performing but also enjoying the run! After all, finishing a run (whatever the time) especially when I did not feel like running in the first place, participating in a race with my daughters (just for fun) and running with my hubby (which is at a much slower pace) are all making me feel good and emoticon


Today, I promise I will NOT quit.

I pledge that no matter how many ups and downs I pass through, I WILL continue on my journey.

I pledge to make a NEW START today, and forgive myself for my past, and to stop being so critical of myself.

I pledge to take control of myself, to stop making excuses, and stop blaming other people or situations.

I pledge to treat myself as I would my best friend, because that is who I am.

I pledge to stay in the race and to be a WINNER!

I saw this on RUNNER4LIFE08 Friends Blog and decided to take the pledge. Many signature are included... Will you join the movement?
Thank you for posting it - I think this is what I needed!

Count me IN!!!
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    I love the pledge, thanks for sharing!
    1794 days ago
    I read an excellent post on Healthy Tipping Point, one of the many healthy living blogs I read. The title was Adding not Subtracting. So instead of cutting out sugar, or cutting out carbs, basically subtracting things, add things.
    Add more veggies, add more steps, add more meditation:)
    I loved this idea and plan to think about that this week. I actually started upping my cardio. I cannot wait til I can run outside, but in the mean time I have to find other forms of exercise to do to help maintain:) The stepper, rower, and ARC trainer are three new to me machines I started using. I love rotating through them:) When I get bored bad things happen (like over eating, over obsessing, etc.)
    Hope your week is off to a great start!
    1794 days ago
    You have a great plan to keep you on track. I know emoticon !

    Thanks for taking the pledge with me! Now we can keep each other accountable.

    1794 days ago
  • FIREFLY4407
    Good that you are listening to your body and also fighting all or nothing thinking. We don't always make the perfect choices, but as long as the good ones outnumber the poor ones, and we don't let one poor choice snowball into many, we should get to where we want to go...
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    1794 days ago
    i sometimes give in after a small mistake instead of rededicating myself to reaching my goals. We can't be perfect all the time, but we can still work hard to reach our goals.

    good job identifiing emotional eating problems.
    1794 days ago
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