Boring Blog ... but I need to put in on paper.
Spring is here and what I see out the window is this!
So, if I wait for the grass to grow before I get back on track, I might be disappointed!
Two years ago I completed the Spring into Shape Challenge and I tried the Tame your Sweet tooth Challenge too... With some introspection, I realized that I have a tendency to apply the "All or Nothing... " I my own words it means when I do something, I do it right - I give it my best.
Since the beginning of the year, my biggest struggle is CONSISTENCY! ...
With food, I don't restrict myself to the nothing (like no sweets...or restricting certain food); see today I am having BBQ!!!
I know how to satisfy my craving with healthy recipes, like my desert last night:
Cocoa- Cinnamon Tapioca (145 cal, 5 gr Fat and 8 gr Proteins)
See my recipe at: recipes.sparkpeople.com/
.. or tonight a Strawberry Yojo (50 cal!) Recipe at: recipes.sparkpeople.com/
My problem is not my cravings, it is my emotional eating.
I have this self fulfilling prophecy lately, because I am not successful at reaching my goals, I allow myself to fail and so on... my thinking goes like this:
- I feel bad and stressed...
- My stomach is all knots
- I know it is not rational - it is EMOTIONAL
- Since I am feeling bad - may as well feel bad for a reason: So I eat ! ... therefore my binge episode truly makes me feel bad (physically) and I now have a reason to feel the way I feel ...
I track everything (the good and the bad!) and when I fail... I think "I really failed"!
I started a in-range streak in order to see the scale moving (yeah, the 8 to 10 extra... not a big deal but worse, I really don't like it when it goes up!). I broke my streak Friday but I made up for it yesterday... Some call this cheat days... I don't think this is working for me.
With exercise: I set up goals - mostly running... For over one month now (since my last race) I have not been able to have one regular week of training.... On top of that, since Thursday I am at a "Stop Point" because of excruciating lower back pain that irradiate up to my knee on my left side. I went for a massage on Friday and I have a second appointment tomorrow. I went for nice walks but that is the extend of what I can do for now...and doing my stretches ...
Maybe I was doing too much or too intense! Even with what is suppose to help me, yoga...especially the power yoga might be too much or too focus on my weaknesses - my lower back and hips...
Which lead me to question my strategies...
Here is how I am going to reach my summer goals - yeah, SUMMER.
I read an article on Spark this morning that suggest to have a positive approach - not look at what we do wrong but instead, look at what we do when we have a good day, identify the contributing factors and just REPEAT !
Food - tracking works! No cheat... When feeling stressed, grab a cup of green tea and meditate for 15 min. Restaurant and take out are difficult situation. In best cases, I can check out the menu before, in other case, I will manage the rest of the day accordingly.
Exercise - If I want to do a good season of races, I need to slow down. I think this is what my body is trying to say. I am doing the ALL (even when I go for a short 5k - I think I push it too much... and I did not take the time to recover...) I will take this week easy and I will get back to a running training plan.
I know I am repeating myself here - let's call it re-assessing!
13 April: Houston (TX) - 5km
25 May: Ottawa - 10km - Canadian Armed Forces Running Championship. I was going to run a full marathon the next day, but I will keep this for later...
7 June - RELAY for LIFE (not a race but surely an event
I finally decided that I will do a half-marathon at the start of the season.
16 June: In my town!!! Barrie Half-marathon
July - Jeff and I are going to hike the West Coast trail - 80 km in 3 days (not flat!) - Not a race - just an Active challenging vacation! After that point, I am not so sure...
August and Sept - training... I might do the Army Run Half-Marathon
I am looking for a full marathon in the fall. Local or destination... Maybe Vegas!
Emma (my 17yo daughter) is considering training for her first HM. It might be cool to do together - so not trying to do a PB - the Disney Run.
I think I need to shift my training focus on not always performing but also enjoying the run! After all, finishing a run (whatever the time) especially when I did not feel like running in the first place, participating in a race with my daughters (just for fun) and running with my hubby (which is at a much slower pace) are all making me feel good and
Today, I promise I will NOT quit.
I pledge that no matter how many ups and downs I pass through, I WILL continue on my journey.
I pledge to make a NEW START today, and forgive myself for my past, and to stop being so critical of myself.
I pledge to take control of myself, to stop making excuses, and stop blaming other people or situations.
I pledge to treat myself as I would my best friend, because that is who I am.
I pledge to stay in the race and to be a WINNER!
I saw this on RUNNER4LIFE08 Friends Blog and decided to take the pledge. Many signature are included... Will you join the movement?
Thank you for posting it - I think this is what I needed!
Count me IN!!!