Sunday, March 24, 2013
,,,great spirit I keep putting on weight, things are stressful but I thought I had learned how to live healthier and keep the weight off. But I feel like a failure more so now that ever because I tasted victory, I was there, I was 'normal' bmi, I was....
But no longer. The little voices in my head are not helping, my body is sabotaging me each way I turn. Every time I think of weighing myself now it doesn't feel like 'let's begin again, we need a starting point" it feels more like "see this was foreseen, you were going to fail eventually"
I don't know what to do to start again...it was hard the first time it feels 100x harder now.