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Hot Yoga

Sunday, March 24, 2013

My roomate Lloyd taught his first hot yoga class today and being the dutiful friend, I attended. I don't think he appreciates what a monumental feat this was for me. You see, my roommate is a hot 35 year old trainer. I on the other hand am a middle aged overweight female who would rather get a root canal than be thrust into a room of scantily clad 20 year olds gracefully performing downward dogs, proud warriors, and happy babies.

For the last week I had so many negative thoughts crossing my mind. I had flashbacks of high school gym class and all the torture and embarrassments that an overweight teenager experiences. I was also worried about my health. Having some heart issues, it was a real concern. What if I pass out during class and have a heart attack?(I went so far as to put my insurance card and medical information in my yoga bag) And of course did I mention the fear of being the laughing stock of the class? (That even topped the "I'm going to die" fear!)

Despite my misgivings, I dug out a tank top and found a pair of sweat pants. Since I'm writing this blog you can already guess that I survived my adventure. Not only did I survive-I had an awesome time and I'm willing to try it again. So here is what I learned from my adventure:

emoticon Everyone in the class was so busy worrying about their own form, they didn't have time to pay attention to me. I'm willing to bet a lot of them have the exact same insecurities as I do. I think I spend way too much time worrying about what other people think of me.
emoticon I may not have been the youngest or the skinniest person there, but I did my best and tried every pose. There were a lot of people who gave up half way through the class. Lloyd always tells me I'm a lot stronger than I give myself credit for and I'm starting to believe he is right.
emoticon If you give into your fears, you will never achieve your dreams. It would have been so easy to cancel the class and believe all the negative talk. Yes, I was the oldest and heaviest person in the class....but that's ok I won't be for long. The people who show up and do things are the ones who are in shape. I can choose to hide in my room and be overweight and unhappy the rest of my life-telling myself that one day when I lose enough weight maybe I'll try yoga ...or I can choose to take a chance and go for it. That way one day I will be that skinny, scantily clad 40 something gracefully performing downward dog and happy baby. Maybe I'll be an inspiration to someone else who is trying to overcome their fears. After all, if I can do it-anyone can!
emoticon Finally I learned that I don't need to do everything perfectly to enjoy it. I made the decision to go at my own pace and enjoy the class. That took away the stress of having to be perfect. So I couldn't bend over backwards and touch my toes to my head. I was still able to bend backwards a little bit-and hey it gives me something to aspire to.

So I guess my point from all of this is don't be afraid to try new things. You can never achieve your goals if you don't show up.

See you in hot yoga class!
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    I really enjoyed reading your post. I'm also on a 'hot yoga' journey. In the past 2 years, I've gained about 10 pounds due to a stressful move. Since October, I've been pretty heavily into SP. Although its been helping me in lots of ways to track calories and exercise more, it hasn't really made a dent in terms of losing weight. I've recently bought a 3 week unlimited hot yoga pass, with the goal of doing 5 classes a week for 3 weeks. Last week, I did my 5 classes. So far, this week, I've done 3, and have 2 more to go. I find hot yoga very challenging, especially because of the dominance of people with 'perfect' bodies. At the same time, people are very focused on their own breathing, sweating, and ability rather than other people and judging them-- at least that is how I feel. I think it takes much more courage to do a heavy yoga style like hot yoga if you are older and overweight than younger and athletic. Good for you!
    1780 days ago
    I've heard so many good things about hot yoga classes but have had similar concerns. Now, I will be more inclined to give it a try--thanks to you!!!! Thank you! emoticon emoticon
    1790 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/25/2013 9:08:28 PM
    emoticon I'm glad you found something to wear, made it through the class, and did your best! You rock!

    - Karen
    1790 days ago
    Well proud of you for doing it...yay...go you
    1791 days ago
    Congratulations and you have me wanting to go to a yoga class right now.
    Major kudos to you to confronting your fears and anxieties and going and doing the absolute best you could. It sounds like the whole experience was a great success and has you wanting to continue to work..

    bend over backward and touch your head toes to your head? OUCH!
    1791 days ago
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