Sunday, March 24, 2013
Hi guys!! yesterday was a tough day, my bf sister passed early yesterday morning. I stayed home from work so I could be there for him and his dad. It was a sad day but we were all together so it was not a lonely day. I did have a farwell to Robin drink (that was her name) with my bf and his dad but that is all. I feel good knowing that I only had one drink and i did not even finish the whole thing but it was nice to know that i am in control over me and not the other way around. I did of course run a 5.10 miler and did my 50 push ups, working out is not only relaxing to me but it is a stress reliver. So yesterday was rough but it was a good day for the most part. Right now St. louis is in a snow storm and yes i had to drive to work in it. It was not fun and the roads are just horrible. Its still snowing and its not supposed to stop until monday. I hope they close my work soon so i can get home safely. My bf is worried out of his mind and could you blam him, he just lost a sister and now i have to drive around in a snow storm. I made it to work with no problems but I still have to drive home. Between the passing of his sister and this storm that is going on it makes me realize just how short life can be. I mean nothing is garenteed and you have to enjoy each second, minute and day that you have. Any who, my bf wants me to make my treat night for this week tonight instead of next saturday and I don't know how I feel about that but i told him i would think about it. I know I have controling issues and that "I" like to plan "my actions" out myself but im learning that, that could be selfish. I mean I dont wanna be selfish but i also dont want to mess up my plans. I know one nite wont mess up what I have accomplished over the last 4 weeks but its just scary sometimes for me to let go, lol. Idk Well i will blog tomorrow and let you know what happened, lol happy sparking!!