Sunday, March 24, 2013
My weight goes up a little, and suddenly my brain is in overdrive. I examine myriad possibilities - could have been this, or this, or that, or...or...or? And then I get so stuck in the "whys" that I forget the simple things - the "whats." Whatever else might be involved, the truth is that for the past 10 days or so, I've eaten a little too much and been a little less active. My brain knows all the rest, water, emotions, season change, sleep, etc. etc. But really all I have to do is the simple things, and the complicated things will take care of themselves.
Years ago in AA, an older gentleman who'd been sober for decades listened to my rant at a meeting and suggested kindly that he recognized my problem...paralysis of analysis. The inability to move in the right direction because of being SO VERY busy figuring out the reasons for everything was keeping me from doing the simple things. He was right then, and he's still right now. His advice has helped me stay clean and sober, one day at a time, for 29 years, and I think it can help me with this, too.
So, back to basics! Thanks everyone for your suggestions, your kindness, and your warmth. I never expected any of those, and I'm so very, very grateful.