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I just want to keep losing!

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Finally I have had a breakthrough in losing weight. This is the first time since I was in high school that I'm under 300 pounds, and it terrifies me. Every single thing I put in my mouth makes me feel guilty, and then I get discouraged, and I give up for the day. This is the vicious cycle I find myself going back to over and over. I just don't know what to do to make it stop, and it really upsets me. I am happy with the weight I am right now, of course I know for my health I have to lose more, and it feels great when the pounds drop. Until recently, I went through some things in my life. I was homeless for a while, surviving on the kindness of others, and a lot of the time I didn't have a choice but not to eat. I dropped 80 pounds in 7 months from the lack of food, and now that I'm back home with my parents, and I have the freedom to eat when I want, it's hard for me to stop. It's very frustrating. I feel like I'm falling back into old habits that I don't want to. I just want to wake up one day and not feel like I want to eat everything around me. It's hard too, when I'm not the only one buying food in the house, and there are so many things lying around that I really shouldn't eat. I just have to keep reminding myself that every day is a new day. I've done good so far. I had a small bowl of cereal with 2% milk for breakfast, and three glasses of water. I feel comfortable, I just have to keep my hands and my mind busy. I hope to go for a walk later, it's finally seeming to warm up outside. We'll see how things go today. I'm really hoping for the best!
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  • v BRENDA_G50
    Old habits are really hard to break, but that doesn't mean we can't. emoticon emoticon
    1221 days ago
  • v SEEKNIRVANA
    Thanks you guys =)
    1221 days ago
  • v EVIE4NOW
    I find it's better to take it day by day or meal by meal then week by week or month by month. It doesn't seem quite so overwhelming then.
    1221 days ago
  • v DARJR50
    when you are a loser you are a winner.
    1221 days ago
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