Saturday, March 23, 2013
My best BEST friend in the world was always my mom. I didn't really care about or have close friends my own age as my mom and I were inseperable.
When she died in 2008, I spent alot of time trying to form attatchments with others. Consequently, people would act like we were friends just to use me. However, there was this one girl at work that I began becoming close to. We did everything together, even though she was younger than me we had so much in common. I bared my soul to her and she did the same, even confiding she was bisexual, which not many knew.
She ended up moving in with me for a few months and I would drive her everywhere and she eventually just drove my car.
Even though she couldn't help me out like I could her, I was on top of the world. I thought I found that once in a lifetime friend some people have.
However, she moved in with her boyfriend whom we both worked with. She got a car. Her man didn't like me and the feeling was mutual.
Anyway, we started hanging out less and less. We started back up and I bought her a gold dog tag with a verse that meant something to both of us.
Then, all of a sudden, nothing. I was stranded with aflat tire months ago. She happened to ride by and she waved and drove on.
Then, yesterday, I saw her with her mom at wal-mart. Her mom said hello, but she kept walking. I looked back and she said something to her mom and they both just looked at me.
I always wondered what it was about me that made it impossible to stay close to people. Most of them I don't really mind if the friendship ends. But this one hurt :(