Saturday, March 23, 2013
I paniced after reading the scale going up and was going to do the medifast to get this weight off, then I read the medifast posting on sparkpeople and realized I am nuts. Sure its hard on my knees but why if I can't lose it eating good healthy food and exercising every day would I think that prepackaged crap will do it. It reaffirmed my commitment to health and I am going to go on dr furhman again hoping that this time I can be consistent. The other thing I realized is everytime I see a picture of myself I freak I don't look that huge in the mirror so my dismorphia must be kicking in. Breathe release relax let go its all ok I can do this there is nothing 'Wrong" with me and I don't have to get into panic mode one step at a time. I have to realize though that I have been on this site for 5 years its time to buckle down and get the unhealthy burden off my back.